Bowing Out

tonight i took the stage,
and disappeared behind the glow of fame.
pretending to be someone else, someone better
and giving up the battle for i discovered the unimaginable.
feeling for the first time uneasy,
sad because i had lost my glory.

i did not need to take the stage,
i wanted to be home again.
but knowing the faces made me realize reality.
i was not where i wanted to be anymore.
an new era opened for the angels lost in the city
and i took a vow to never dance in their shadows again.

i needed to hear the voice of a savior to save my troubled heart
so i spoke into the dark and gave another chance to my nightmares.
he failed me, yet again, and my heart broke free from my chest.
i was fooled into a happiness bound in denial and false prayers
and loved to hate my savior, and hated to love him.

tonight i took the stage,
not once
but twice
and each time i looked into the darkness, i could see a passing ghost.
and each time i looked into the darkness, i could see those brown eyes.


tonight i took the stage,
and now this is me bowing out.