I Didn't Say Goodbye

Sitting with the phone on my ear
Down my face runs another tear
All I can do is cry
But I can't tell you why
As my wrist rests on my blade
Just know that I am ashamed
For what is about to be
What it is that you can't see
Breaking through my skin
I'm sorry again
That I'm not strong enough
That I'm so fucked up
I wish it wouldn't hurt you
I try to say the words but they just won't come through
I wish I wasn't so weak
I wish I had the strength to speak
My blood begins to flow
But you're only on the phone so I guess you don't know
You don't know that I'm worse than I've ever been
That I want to be dead
As I watch my blood spill
I've lost my will
And I slip into suicide
you hear an end to my cries
The phone drops to the floor
And I am no more
But even from the other side
I can hear you start to cry
Even in death I still feel pain
Because I can hear your heart break
As the line goes silent
Because in that moment
Your nightmare came true
And there was nothing you could do
I'm sorry I wasn't strong enough to survive
That I didn't have the will to stay alive
I'm sorry that I made you hurt and that I made you cry
But most of all...
I'm Sorry I Didn't Say Goodbye!