...Pills stole my soul

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Grimaced thoughts of ill-conceived hope
A soap soaked rope 
You'll never climb in time
The sorrow binds with the grime
A life of failures finally out of time
Slide back to the bottom as your efforts mean nil
So they feed you pills
Drill into your psyche the answers are in pharmaceutical manipulation
Soon you find you can't even care
Feeling nothing as you breathe in once meaningful air
This drifting leaf of faltered autumn sorrows 
Crumbles under the boot of drug induced numb tomorrows
Pills never cured my ills
Only emptied me of knowing how to care
I don't even have the desire to not take the next pill they have prepared
Blind allegiance to the emptiness of my once existential existence
They stole my resistance
I don’t even care
I can sit here
Forever
Stare
I
Don’t
Care
I can't even muster the desire to look to the sky or die...
They took my soul and now I just lie in abject silence 
No thought or feeling
Bury me alive
My life has no meaning
Long ago I found myself leaving