I finally put all of my cards onto the table,
weather they be playing cards,
it would be the suit of hearts,
finally admitting how I trully feel to my own personal king of hearts,
Though it could be more alike me laying down my own set of Tarot cards,
changing my fate in one form or another,
I just hope to draw the lovers, and not the fool this time,
perhaps I am just stacking cards,
building a fancy house of cards,
with one wrong breath or a movement too quick,
It or I could go crumbeling down in a heap,
I have set them down slowly,with acute precision one by one,
until this point,
now I am afraid I have dealt a new hand entirely,
maybe a card too many at one time to be interpereted properly,
but at least I finally became brave enough to do so,
As much as I fear this move becoming my undoing,
maybe he will deal a hand back to me,
not the same of course,
but maybe well enough to either compete against,
or mesh well with the odd hand that I have offered,
In truth,
today has been a big day for me,
it has been the first time I have said everything I wanted to say to somebody,
to just come out and say it,
without censorship or second thought to my fears,
giving him the power to break me,
for the first time,
I have done it unafraid and do not regret putting my heart out there,
I hope that he understands,
just how much it took to do this after all I have been through. 
this is my new hand,
take it or leave it on the table.