[My Life]

By Deathkitten

Sickened
by a lust for darkness
Rummaging
through weedy thoughts
in attempt to reminisce
on almost vacant traces
of the good I thought was left
Frantically consuming
each & every drop
from a glass bottle
filling me from head to toe-top
How could I (how would I) forget?
Blissful memories lingered
& however did it enlighten
everyone, but me?
Searching in every direction
Turning around just to see
the shadow
seemingly lurking in the distance
wasn't so distant to me
Drowning
in liquid-induced emotions
Losing a great deal of sleep
A cause & effect corrosion
set in scars so very deep
Stuck & helpless
in an everlasting battle
against the world,
myself & dreams
The future seemed so far away
so I cried out unto a light
as it refused to share its beams
I don't know
how much more I can fight
I'm left with nothing else to say
or knowledge of what it means
to look forward to a brand new day
so I opened another bottle
& drank my life away

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Published on Tuesday, August 13, 2013. Filed under: "Personal" and "Poetry"

Author's Note:

Been there...done that...and that's that! Kinda sorta maybe ;)

Comments on "[My Life]"

A former member wrote: Hard to remain optimistic when your life has proven time and time again that pain far outweighs all other feelings. Sometimes the only thing that keeps you going is those people who want you to fall, so you never stop moving forward as a big fat fuck you to them all. Drinking is just another way to cope with those feelings I guess. A tormenting write to be sure DK.
A former member wrote: I can completely relate to this. Drowning in self induced escapism.. fucking tragically beautiful man. It's nice in the dark cause the liquor doesn't think you're at the end of your rope ... I think this is great
On Thursday, August 15, 2013, Deathkitten (571) wrote:

Exactly hah thanks, kourt :)
On Wednesday, August 14, 2013, Sean Mc Shane (606) wrote:

Excellent DK, the end said it all for me. There's always another bottle at Rock-Bottom. I know it too well. Awesome words and style. Cool. Til next time -
On Wednesday, August 14, 2013, Deathkitten (571) wrote:

Right on! Thank you so much, Sean :)
On Wednesday, August 14, 2013, dwells (4177) wrote:

Kills the next day too while licking wounds, life is too short! (now I need a cold one, cheers Jes! well said)
On Wednesday, August 14, 2013, Deathkitten (571) wrote:

Yes it does & yes it is. Drink one for me too haha thanks, Dan :)
On Wednesday, August 14, 2013, Intoxicating Delirium (273) wrote:

"Drowning in liquid-induced emotions" great line, I did that last night and now I'm not feeling so hot.. luckily I have some awesome poems to keep me awake at work... Great write.
On Wednesday, August 14, 2013, Deathkitten (571) wrote:

Aww haha i've had my fair share of those days. Thank you :)
On Wednesday, August 14, 2013, blue angel (866) wrote:

Gathering the light from the shadows is illusive in nature, but yet it burns bright with each indulging swallow...:)~ This is a very powerful write... It drew me in from the darkness ~*_*~
On Wednesday, August 14, 2013, Deathkitten (571) wrote:

Yes indeed! Thank you so very much, lovely :)
On Wednesday, August 14, 2013, BlackVelvet Rose (175) wrote:

Life usually deals us lemons of memories to dwell on long into the future. It is at times a bitter pill to swallow, but when you look back and think about the good times they always make you smile in one way or another. The bad ones well at times you forget those completely if they are minor. Life is life baby no one can ever tell us that is not what it is...
On Wednesday, August 14, 2013, Deathkitten (571) wrote:

Well... those lemons have left a sour taste in my mouth & burned my eyes for far too long! Good memories help, but when the bad outweighs the good, it does become very difficul[. Just gotta keep trucking! Yep yep *grins* thank you sweetness :)
A former member wrote: So powerful and intense are the emotions here beautifully captured
On Tuesday, August 13, 2013, Deathkitten (571) wrote:

Thank you so very much, FFD :)