Incubus Mentality

By NarcissusNarcosis

When I look at you
my emotions boil over
can't help but voice
my thoughts and anger...
Such a conceited ass
no regard for others
damage dealt upon lives
or the pain you cause
with your honest lies...
a supportive mask worn
over manipulative eyes
no contrition
if you see misery
you take advantage
every compliment you throw
is backhanded...
So conniving
deceiving those close
tricking them into revealing
all their feelings
regrets and darkest secrets
without remorse...
plagiaristic and falsified unity
bathing in your perceived impunity
You will die alone
melting on
your unrepentant throne...
Itching for a fix
always doped and fogged with umbrage
spiteful consonants
and dudgeon vowels
in narcotic words
matter of fact,
you're high right now.
Poisoned and diseased
with your own malignity
malevolent schemes
planned in nightmarish dreams...
Dumb enough
to use your intelligence
in ways of no relevance
brain throbbing from your
Incubus mentality
bitter cold reality
moments of sanity
leave you shivering
freezing inside
because you know
the ice you have cracked
is irreparable...
Chewing your own tongue
after biting into
enough spicy tastes
to seal your own bittersweet fate
already peppered your soul
at such a young age...

My eyes burn
from staring at your shell
with one last glance
I think
with pure hatred:
I will be the one
to fucking kill you.

Then I turn around
and walk away
from the mirror...

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Published on Sunday, August 4, 2013. Filed under: "Poetry"

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Comments on "Incubus Mentality"

A former member wrote: So...a little birdy fluttered on over to tell me about his bad case of antisocial personality disorder; and I'm really glad he did. Definitely seeing the chipped caulk I recognize all too well. First stanza and last stanza cut deep, and your flow always gets me, I never know what's coming--but I first found this one a few weeks ago, and I re-read it about six or seven times looking for a skipped beat. "Itching for a fix, deceiving those close...matter of fact, you're high right now." Yeah, babe, you know, when we photograph ourselves in the mirror, the image always reverses . . . . so it takes a real psycho to acknowledge his sins and still not repent. I like your writing a lot; it's pulsing with anger. But it's your unapologetic observations of everything around you that's amazing. Planned impulsivity . . . a character trait to marvel. Ultimate control while you're out of control . . . it makes you special. But then, you know that.
A former member wrote: "Dumb enough to use your intelligence in ways of no relevance" . . . ahhhh; and now it makes sense.
A former member wrote: Once again I knew you were talking about yourself before I reached the end. Getting to know you quite well through your writing. cold hearted lier, manipulator and deceiver disguised as a supportive friend. Some how you're so good at your twisted game that others trust you and tell you their secrets but you're only play the game for what you can get out of these people. You have no scencerity. Well that's how you describe yourself to us through your poems. An interesting character to analyse. It's not often that one gets the opportunity to meet a psycho! Haha just kidding. Some of your work is very human as well.
A former member wrote: Unless that's another carefully thought out part of your master plan to deceive us all! Ha ha. Oh you are so sly ;-) Sarcastic? Really? But it ties in with the other poems I've commented on so perfectly.
On Monday, August 5, 2013, Devilish (2633) wrote:

over manipulative eyes no contrition if you see misery you take advantage every compliment you throw is backhanded... So conniving ... itching for a fix.. that is how i feel about you .. when i read you i start wanting to scratch that itch then taste it. color me blank and black then slide inside.. i want to come find that demon you hide. if only i could get to you . fuck me.
On Sunday, August 4, 2013, Nehema (958) wrote:

Knowing yourself is, especially the darkside, is very important. This is beautifully written in your wonderful freestyle, p.o.y. - XXOO
On Sunday, August 4, 2013, xZombie Poptartzx (332) wrote:

Very deep... The ending was a bit unexpected. "plagiaristic and falsified unity bathing in your perceived impunity You will die alone melting on your unrepentant throne..." I loved those lines.... Often we are our own worst enemies... iknow i've spent a great deal of time hating myself. xoxo
On Sunday, August 4, 2013, dwells (4177) wrote:

Every incubus needs a succubus, now I gotta look up "dudgeon", thanks NN! Great surprise ending I didn't see coming and very insightful in retrospect, cheers!
On Sunday, August 4, 2013, blue angel (866) wrote:

Sweet incubus :)~ A devil staring back at you from the mirror.... I wonder of a succubus hiding there as well... Better check the dark corners, :)~ Damn I love this write !!! Perfect as always :)