Seeing their faces again.
Remembering all the moments we had.
All the fights, all the tears, all the hugs we shared.


Now that you're gone,
I just have this deep numbness to hold.
I wish that all of this were very differently faired.


Viewing you so still.
You look so much at peace once again.
I feel I'm loosing it without you here to calm me.


I can't eat or drink.
I can't sleep, think, feel or move right.
I finally feel how the lame, beat and blind can be.


I just want to breath.
Please guide me from heaven if you can.
I need your strength the world took to be mine.


I love you still.
This is unlike any deep, wretching pain.
I still smell your perfume and see when you shine.