5yrs and 4 days

By Deathkitten

Awake at 5am again
I think I've done enough tossing & turning
The gears in my mind are overworked & grinding
The memories keep coming back
Will you always haunt me, baby?
It's been 5 yrs and 4 days since the call
When I knew what you'd say
I crumbled
Yeah, the day I sank into the floor
I never found all the pieces
to make me whole again
They fell through the cracks
Oh, where do I begin?
Popping pills left & right
Sucking down 5ths all night
The thing about bottles
There's a bottom to them
I chased away all the pain
Numbed myself with razors & cocaine
I lost myself within your eyes
Many times I wished I'd die
A million times I know i've cried
You think it comes so easy to me?
To let you go so peacefully
But the truth is that it will fade
It just never truly goes away

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Published on Tuesday, March 12, 2013. Filed under: "Personal" and "Poetry"

Comments on "5yrs and 4 days"

On Friday, March 15, 2013, BetaWolfinVA (791) wrote:

Beautiful, and Well written :). i take it this person left you, and left an emptiness after they moved on? I can definately relate, to the point that the hole that she left is the sinkhole that my marriages have collapsed into.
A former member wrote: this is very good...honest, angry, hurt... graphic, but at the same time sweet and sad. I don't know what to say besides I loved it and great job!
On Wednesday, March 13, 2013, Deathkitten (571) wrote:

Thank you bunches :)
On Tuesday, March 12, 2013, Devilish (2633) wrote:

Popping pills left & right Sucking down 5ths all night The thing about bottles There's a bottom to them I chased away all the pain Numbed myself with razors & cocaine.. fucking brilliant writing darling... i love this. very raw and honest and i love it..
On Tuesday, March 12, 2013, Deathkitten (571) wrote:

It is something I had to deal with & fell into a very bad place while trying to cope, didn't know how to & tried to cover it up & hide behind all that so I could get away from how I really felt. Got to where I didn't know who I was anymore & it was hard to pull myself out. It took awhile & sometimes I still think about how things are, but atleast I made an okay write out of it. Thank you for reading, Dev :)
On Tuesday, March 12, 2013, haunted (837) wrote:

kitten i loved this very much. its your style and your use of words that really make this pop im reading that your missing someone and dealing with demons that they left for you. i love it, excellent!
On Tuesday, March 12, 2013, Deathkitten (571) wrote:

I do miss something very important to me. Gosh knows, i've had my fair share of demons, I still battle & unleash at times. It's been a long tough road, but it is what it is. Thank you, Todd :)