A Hard Life

I have lived a hard life
you'd never know it from the smile on my face
raped, abused, under fed, malnurishied
sad but it made me stronger

I hate to say it but I am not going to stand there and take a life time of abuse keep me dead inside

I have lived in cars
I've had bad relationships
You can cheat and lie but leave me alone
I don't hate the past but have learned from it

I can't handle a baby
so I am going to work with older kids at the hospitol
My goals and dreams are slowly coming true
I don't hide behind make up as much

I like to look well dressed but I dont care sometimes
I like to eat junk food so what
I have a gut who cares it doesnt matter
All that matters is my family and the kids I will be helping

I will stand strong and keep myself safe
I may walk down on a busy street and cars will honk
I hold my head up when I walk
I don't stare at my shoes instead of looking people in the eyes

I may be bipolar or what other people call manic depressive but it's no sweat
I let stupid somments roll off my back
I was always the odd one out buty life has changed
I never used to be happy but now I am because I'm loved

Screw all the people who've hurt me they are dead to me
They aren't in my life anymore so who cares what they say anymore
People are cruel and don't choose to understand
I'm not going to let people put me down and walk away without a severe beating

If you don't like my way of life
If you think that I live my life in fear guess again
I don't live like a hermit anymore I go outside every once in a while
To stretch my legs and walk around

Roll some 'cigs smoke 'em
Have a good day and choke down all the things I refuse to remember
I walk into the rain and there I stand with arms outreached and ready to embrace it
I love myself so who cares if you dont like it because I don't anymore