By Demosthenes

mother dearest, why do you hate this so?
what have i scrawled upon cyber paper that infuriates you?
you think im miserable

cant you see how happy i was?
sitting here contentedly at my little 800 dollar computer
that you bought just for me and my brother
with dads own money
typing away at something of no relevance to you
i spend too much time at my little 800 dollar computer
surely it cant be anything important

and you find something
printed by accident
and you read it
and it curses
and speaks of pain
and you think im miserable

and here i am, typing away
and youre off at the movies with dad
so youll never know

youll never know how much you did to me
in the two minutes you yelled
in the two seconds you told me to shred it
in the two seconds you defeated my passion

too bad i had it saved on that little 800 dollar computer
too bad youll never have a chance to appreciate what i do
too bad you dont realize that i write of pain for a reason
too bad you didnt read it slower

and you only get one chance
you can only humiliate what i love once
dont think ill let you try again
"whats that youre writing?"

and its my masterpiece
its everything i need to be as a writer
its beautiful
and you make me think, mother dearest
and you make me glad, to know i still have this
that something is still mine
"o, its nothing."

and i know ill never let you read it
and maybe you know it too
and maybe youve been shut off from your little girl

maybe two seconds was all it took

whos miserable now?

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Copyright 2003 Demosthenes
Published on Saturday, May 17, 2003.     Filed under: "Rage" and "Poetry"
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  • A former member wrote: This is incredible. Tells us how some people will just never understand. Loved th ending, amazing write!

  • HeadpatSlut On Tuesday, April 6, 2010, HeadpatSlut (262)By person wrote:

    I know the feeling, but really? An 800 dollar computer? Damn that's expensive. Thanks for the write, rock on! \m/ Scholar

  • Lylani On Thursday, April 16, 2009, Lylani (119)By person wrote:

    Awesome write, I remember years ago when I lived at home & I used to post here I was terrified my mum would read my work, she would have freaked. Now I'm all grown up and still no-one I really know reads my work, I guess I'm still scared they'll belittle it...hmm

  • Kaleidoscope_Heart On Sunday, November 25, 2007, Kaleidoscope_Heart (114)By person wrote:

    God forbid my Christian mother saw my recent poerty. I can't even begin to Your poem is a voice to many of us: a profound write. Awesome :)

  • Sticky Kitty On Sunday, July 17, 2005, Sticky Kitty (242)By person wrote:

    BRAVO BRAVO!!! *stands and claps* This was amazing. I can relate so so well. This was powerful, incrediable and so fucking stunning. Thank you for this -kitty

  • smurfalwaz On Friday, November 14, 2003, smurfalwaz (13)By person wrote:

    i know how you feel, my mother went through a bunch of my poems, notes, and journals and read everything...then she grounded me for 2 years for everything in them...she also threw em i know who you feel

  • A former member wrote: i am going to ask u a question. do u hate your mother. this poem got to me maybe because it talks of a mother.

  • urbanhumility On Monday, November 3, 2003, urbanhumility (1172)By person wrote:

    a most profound and intellectual piece,...we must look inward into ourselves before speaking of the fault of have spoken well my friend.....urban

  • A former member wrote: My poetry is on my website and everyone I know knows my website. My Mum occasionally visits, reads some poetry, then says "Avens, sometimes you worry me." But she likes the fact that I'm creative. I'm just weird I guess.

  • diavolessa On Saturday, August 16, 2003, diavolessa (208)By person wrote:

    my mom read my poetry journal one day. She was shocked, she yelled, even cried. Yet after sometime, (I guess she though over it) she said that quote: "Some of them were ok." call me crazy but I felt flattered. {dia}

  • A former member wrote: gurl i know how at is. my parents hate everything i write. and u wanted to know y i started writing the way do?? well, i will tell you! it was because of them and because they thought i was miserable. . so y not make them think i am miserable and hey you

  • A former member wrote: never know i may be miserablw when i write but they hate something that they started that they created!! that sense does that make?

  • A former member wrote: how many times have i printed out a poem that i m so proud of and when mom comes in its suddenly nothing its amazing how she can make me fell like shit, enough whining, this shows i m not alone, gotta love yah 4 it!

  • A former member wrote: whoa sara, that's REAALLLY good!!! Wonderful! Astounding! and i think there are a LOT of people who can relate

  • A former member wrote: Mm, I can relate to this a lot. Nicely done.

  • Recycled On Saturday, May 17, 2003, Recycled (94)By person wrote:

    This speaks beautifully of parents who will never understand. Thanks for posting this.

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