Cig Logic #5 sub cat. Intoxicationed Cont...

the complacence is rampant

the only way i can win against it is intense apathy, genuine disregard, and utter selfishness





it's gonna kill me




i can't stand the thought of repeating myself and that none of you "informed" motherfuckers will take me seriously..



if my conviction didn't run so deep i'd run myself through on the sword at my feet








liars







fuck off






i don't matter





there's no way out


there's a little girl in the corner


maybe 17 at best
probly 15


tied and bleeding on the floor


how'd she get here?


she's screaming...
"MOMMY!? HELP ME!....SOMBODY HELP ME!"


i'd like to free her but she...
....she won't let me



she won't shut up either


who are you!?


she calls me a freak


where am i?.....not my room


many other people shouting "EAT HER!.......SUCK HER DRY!"


i feel something hanging on my arm


it's her


i try to shove her away but she won't let go


i swing


she's dead


yet she still speaks


i see two of her


spirit tells me to fuck the body while the body spreads it's legs


should i sever the head just to be sure?






instead i pull out her intestines to hang myself





after i have her corpse things start getting wierd..



caught in a storm of blank pages and apathy on a road paved in bottles of travesty and alcohol apologies
cutting off hands that regrow in an instant while everyone wears their disparity and i can hear their moans of self indulgence

all that runs through my head is...


"i wish i could light them all up like a cigarette and smoke them...inhale all of them into me...they would be easier to silence that way because i can die"


people tell me they want me...



for various reasons that i can't care about



i think i want most of them dead





my confession?





i'm deluded

insecure

i want to fuck you all like a cancer


i'm in love with myself

and i'll kill you somehow if you stay arounf long enough




i fucking hate
therefore i feel





are you satisfied?