Life’s just too complicated
There is one too many
Of those big decisions
To make

And I hate
Hate that I am put on the spot
Dragged into the floodlights
Of life

And I despise the fact
That I can’t understand

You see my brain
It hurts too much
To make an effort

And I wish
I could just slash my wrists
But I know that would get me no where
But in the hospital
With more bills to pay
And an ugly kind of scar

I feel as though
I’m running around
Dressed with a painted smile
A happy hat play
All the while
It’s the same old cycle

I’m never really sure
What to say or do
I just act and be

And hope I’ll make it past
The opening act
On the stage of life's insecurities

And if I ever take a glimpse
By chance in a mirror
I no longer agree
With what I see
Not a desperate little girl
Just a confused "adult",

HA

What a joke
This life I live
I’m a leaf in the wind
A forgotten memory
One of those things
That just has to BE
That is me