Love so pallid in the eyes of this journey
It was once warm and happy
Is it salvagable?
Should we even try?
As loneliness creeps through my skin
It comes through my veins
Breaking down my heart
Bit by slow, painful little bit
Building sheilds and walls of unfathomable,
Merciless power-driven hunger
Sadness hurts and turns to anger
I resent you for this loneliness that binds me to you
The love that causes such loneliness
The realization that the pain I feel
Is horribly real
And I can't explain
Can't speak
Can't scream
Can't moan, cry or wail any words
To even begin to describe the coldness inside
Where there was once warmth
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She becomes careless with herself
No, not he body, but her moves,
Her words
Yes taking happiness from them until the brink of exhaustion becomes them all
For misery loves company
And hey, we're all miserable somewhere deep down
Just finding the spot of everyone else's pain
is seemingly orgasmic to her
Watch as she bends her head back
With nothing but a pleasurable grin
As icy razorblades spew from her mouth
Mirrors to her insides
Come out like vomit
Clear and sharp
With blood dripping from her mouth
Like a cannibalistic warrior

I know this person
She lives inside that dark place we all have
But especially in me
She escapes every once in a while
Ripping happiness of others apart
Smiling wickedly, wretchedly
She comes closer to you
And touches places unimaginable
To make you wish you were dead
She makes me weep
The tears of lament drip from my eyes
It wasn't meant to be like this
This time
Turn and walk away
And I'll lock her back up
Until I am to weak to hold her again.