Anger Management

all the thoughts in my head
of everything that you said
i mean nothing to you
it's just "something you do"
you've no idea how it hurt
how it fucked up my world
how it pulls on my heart
and it breaks me apart
how it stings and i cry
as the red fills my eyes
how i remember at night
every single fucking fight
every single scream
and every broken dream
every fucking word
that you told that little girl
and she believed all your lies
and she wanted to die
would you care if she did?
or would it not even mean shit?
you don't know what it means
to be haunted by screams
you don't know what it's like
to be afraid every night
you don't know how it feels
and it takes so long to heal
how every breath i take
hurts more, and how i hate
and you expect me to do the same?
to be your whore all over again?
no, when you've hurt me so much
fucking sorry's not enough
see, i thought, and i saw
that i dont *need* you anymore
yeah, i'm scared by myself
and i want someone else
but not someone like you
i don't need the things you do
i don't need to hear you shout
cos all that time i wanted out
i don't believe the things you say
you never cared anyway
i don't want to see your face
so just stay the fuck away
cos now i'm not that little girl
and you won't tear apart my world
i know who i want to be
and i'll learn to make that me
so fuck your lies and hurt
because i'm more than you deserve
i am learning to be free
and you won't ever stop me
fuck you.