Bottled up inside of me

Is feelings that won't let me be

I wish that they would go away

And not come back, at least not today

This hasn't been a very good week

And, as of now, my future's bleak

My boyfriend's hit an all time low

And every day his depression grows

Last Thursday he almost slit his wrists

And his moods keep taking drastic twists

Sometimes he just scares me so

And what he'll do next, I do not know

He scares the shit out of me

And tells me to leave him be

But all I want to do is help him

Keep him from tearing himself limb from limb

I don't want to just be pushed away

Have him ignore the words I say

I love him dearly, more than he knows

But I guess to him, it does not show

I hurt so much on the inside

But my pain I try to hide

This bottled up rage has got to go

For the pain I feel, no one can know

For his sake, I hope this feeling leaves

And my fake façade I hope he believes

He may have his problems, but I have mine

I just wished he'd be there for me, just one time.