Swallow Hard

By GothicBlack



I swallow the blood of my own fear
And I walk through the ashes of my own tears




And with every breath
I find myself
Stumbling
Through this
Endless darkness
I've buried these
Feelings
Deep inside me
And it seems
I've fallen in
Your arms
Again
And i can't help myself
I'm frozen here
In terrified fear
Of myself
In a moment
My breathe will come
And I'll stand here
Just a little bit longer
To focus my eyes
Allowing myself
To see
Anew
And my soul
Is carried on
The wings of daemons
How am I
Suppose to
Survive?
Unable to see
Through this darkness
Unable to breath
Through this fog
Unable to care
Through all these feelings
Consuming my heart
My soul is dying
Slowly
And i can’t do anything
For protection
For this pain
And yet i cant but enjoy myself
In this world
Of bliss with an absence of life


And the Angels
Are ringing in my ears
Like the bomb that's exploded
In my very own head
That angelic loveliness
Burns through my eyes
And I can’t move
But breathe and be thankful
For this overpowering darkness
For they're always here
Always in my mind
My own creations
My own protection
My own downfall
My PAIN


My own kindness stings
Electrocuting my soul
Burning my heart
With the heat
Of my own desires


And I’m begging on my knees
For some kind of release
Please someone
Come and find me here
Dying slowly
Painfully
And I’m kept awake
By all the
Screaming
And silent
Tears
Behind my
Ears
Fears
And I’m laying here
Confused in darkness


I bleed tonight




As i swallow the blood of my own fears
And i walk through the ashes of my own tears

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© 2006 GothicBlack
Published on Friday, January 20, 2006.     Filed under: "Depressed" and "Poetry"
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  • Mord On Tuesday, November 7, 2006, Mord (35)By person wrote:

    OMG...this is ringing in my ears way to true..dam

  • A former member wrote: even through my ADD it held me all the way..bravo gina

  • Lucklost On Wednesday, January 25, 2006, Lucklost (30)By person wrote:

    "I swallow the blood of my own fear And I walk through the ashes of my own tears" intense line....very deep.....your a great writer..i loved this write...good job

  • A former member wrote: the notion of bleeding fear...the solitude, lack of illumination and self fear: "I'm frozen here In terrified fear Of myself" related to the loss of life itself, bleeding...is very powerful

  • Doc On Saturday, January 21, 2006, Doc (145)By person wrote:

    I do love the entrace. Its hard for me to look at this from simply one angle. "And yet i cant but enjoy myself In this world Of bliss with an absence of life " - this makes me think of a simple acceptance, although allowing for consitance question, of t

  • Doc On Saturday, January 21, 2006, Doc (145)By person wrote:

    of what has become your life. Yet it also shows this unbearable nature. Two sides of the same coin flipped up in the air, speaking a different story as it faces you. Interesting, I like it. Doc

  • AHHH On Friday, January 20, 2006, AHHH (187)By person wrote:

    very nice. very.

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