As I Am Inside The Looking Glass

By JiNx

Fading in to a disarray
Becoming more mentally ill
I’m drifting farther away
While losing my power of will

I’ve become lost inside my mind
Feeling so empty and cold
For my thoughts were never kind
And my mind seems to grow old

Staring in to the looking glass
The image I see can’t be me
For she’s of another class
She seems more distant to be

Those eyes are becoming more dull
And her skin becomes paler
She looks as if she’s ready to fall
To life’s reality she is a failure

How can this be my reflection?
I’m just another contradiction

I don’t feel real
Maybe I’m nonexistent
I can’t even feel
But my heart is consistent

I’m just another whisper in the wind
Leave me alone within my fear
Kill me now for I have sinned
Darkness seems to surround me here

What the hell is wrong with me?
For I’ve become more distant to be

Nothing but a lonesome case
The darkness is consuming
Lost inside this dreadful place
These thoughts are overwhelming

No one hears me screaming
Nor do they understand my pain
Don’t even see my soul leaving
While the thoughts drive me insane

The air is becoming dense
I’m fading into the dismay
Dieing here in this silence
No one noticed me anyway…

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© 2005 Jessie Nicole
Published on Monday, December 5, 2005.     Filed under: "Depressed" and "Poetry"
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  • K_Love On Monday, January 2, 2006, K_Love (525)By person wrote:

    Wow Jinxie, very deep I can feel your emotions bleeding through the words. Beautifully and yet painfully written. I loved this! I miss you and love you

  • Myrrhkuri the fallen one On Tuesday, December 27, 2005, Myrrhkuri the fallen one (94)By person wrote:

    Very emotional poem...nice write! don'take life to seriously being crazy can get you paid...trust me! I'm doing it!

  • urbanhumility On Monday, December 5, 2005, urbanhumility (1158)By person wrote:

    self- actualzation........a process that is going strong here.......beautiful and well spoken.........urban

  • AniDayz On Monday, December 5, 2005, AniDayz (812)By person wrote:

    to not feel real, recognize no.thing in the reflection of some.one,who has become...distant from the self in the shatter.ed.ness...i feel this...though i know, there is more, inside, than what seems to [currently]be.

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