As I Am Inside The Looking Glass
By JiNx
Fading in to a disarray
Becoming more mentally ill
I’m drifting farther away
While losing my power of will
I’ve become lost inside my mind
Feeling so empty and cold
For my thoughts were never kind
And my mind seems to grow old
Staring in to the looking glass
The image I see can’t be me
For she’s of another class
She seems more distant to be
Those eyes are becoming more dull
And her skin becomes paler
She looks as if she’s ready to fall
To life’s reality she is a failure
How can this be my reflection?
I’m just another contradiction
I don’t feel real
Maybe I’m nonexistent
I can’t even feel
But my heart is consistent
I’m just another whisper in the wind
Leave me alone within my fear
Kill me now for I have sinned
Darkness seems to surround me here
What the hell is wrong with me?
For I’ve become more distant to be
Nothing but a lonesome case
The darkness is consuming
Lost inside this dreadful place
These thoughts are overwhelming
No one hears me screaming
Nor do they understand my pain
Don’t even see my soul leaving
While the thoughts drive me insane
The air is becoming dense
I’m fading into the dismay
Dieing here in this silence
No one noticed me anyway…
Comments on "As I Am Inside The Looking Glass"
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On Monday, January 2, 2006, K_Love
(525) wrote:
Wow Jinxie, very deep I can feel your emotions bleeding through the words. Beautifully and yet painfully written. I loved this! I miss you and love you
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On Tuesday, December 27, 2005, Myrrhkuri the fallen one
(94) wrote:
Very emotional poem...nice write! don'take life to seriously being crazy can get you paid...trust me! I'm doing it!
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On Monday, December 5, 2005, urbanhumility
(1158) wrote:
self- actualzation........a process that is going strong here.......beautiful and well spoken.........urban
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On Monday, December 5, 2005, AniDayz
(812) wrote:
to not feel real, recognize no.thing in the reflection of some.one,who has become...distant from the self in the shatter.ed.ness...i feel this...though i know, there is more, inside, than what seems to [currently]be.