Farewell to God

By GothicBlack

That of dreams
And that of hope
Means nothing more to me
Here I stand
In front of you
My beholder
Lost in a sea of tears
Over run by fears
Its time, I know
I can tell
Simply by
The slightest movement
Of your hand, or head
My heart is heavy
Too filled with sorrows
Of unknown mysterious
Shadows of doubt
Swirl around me
But time's grief
Is overwhelming
And age has not
Treated me so nicely
So here I am
I stand in front
Of you, my judge
My mystic
I fear however
That I've lost my faith
Faith in myself
My self worth, unwanted,
I can't understand
The world around me
I've lost myself in the crowd
In the sea of tears I drown
Unaware is my mind
To my bodies sickness
I feel I am ready
To be put to rest
My spirit has died within
I've spent myself
Too thin these years
I realize now
I loved you all
But to all I must
Say goodbye

I can see my Angel
Her beauty surpassing
All I've ever seen.
On the foothills of green
Flourishing in her life
Of mystic powers
Overpowering
I must go to her
You see, you must understand
It's time for me to go
And I can not
Find it in my heart
To love you God
I can not lie any longer
I do NOT love you God
So I go unto death
With this uncertainty
But I can not find faith
When one does not believe
But do not worry
I still go towards my Angel

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Tara Keiserman

Published on Monday, October 3, 2005. Filed under: "Spiritual" and "Poetry"

Comments on "Farewell to God"

A former member wrote: And if I said at this point that I got it and this was a beautiful portrayal of sorrow, I think it would be lost in the dungeons of comments at this unheard prayer's knees...you wind metaphor with more depth than most...
On Tuesday, October 4, 2005, Mistress Shadow (249) wrote:

This poem is beautiful. Your melancholy tone captures every word of this piece. Since no one else was going to comment on your poem, I thought I should. Also, know I'm always here with a shoulder.~T~
On Tuesday, October 4, 2005, Kali Ma (43) wrote:

this was sad to read. i hope things get better... as for the ppl (person) below: you need to relax a little and realize that poetry is not literal... ~ Asheai
On Tuesday, October 4, 2005, MESUN (230) wrote:

aside from picking this thing to death, i think it is a wonderful write. very beautiful, opening yourself, being vulnerable. i like it, plain and simple.
On Tuesday, October 4, 2005, ApathysKiss (377) wrote:

if you're gonna argue specify which religions speak of angels what is she islam? jewish? what? what saint sentient? i am quite informed of other religions, religions that do not fall under the category of 'christianity.' so what are you defending?
On Tuesday, October 4, 2005, GothicBlack (186) wrote:

i am under my own "category", i do not fit into any one religion. I speak of Angels, only because i like the idea of them. I think Six understood me best of all, as he always does. Thyank you all for your input though (i think. lol). ~gothic~
On Tuesday, October 4, 2005, Saint Sentient (16) wrote:

Dear, please seem literate before you argue. Note the 'maybe' in my comments? You're the one that assumed it was Christianity. But she cleared it up, why not let it go?
On Tuesday, October 4, 2005, ApathysKiss (377) wrote:

and that was literate.
On Tuesday, October 4, 2005, ApathysKiss (377) wrote:

i just did look down below after her clearing statements.
On Tuesday, October 4, 2005, Six-Out (1423) wrote:

Silly kids, arguing religion as if any of you know what the hell you're talking about. Tara, this was heartbreaking. I want you to be happy, really happy. You deserve it babe, hopefully this was just midnight scribblings.
On Tuesday, October 4, 2005, ApathysKiss (377) wrote:

oh shuddup, jon =)~
On Tuesday, October 4, 2005, Six-Out (1423) wrote:

You just know I'm right. ;)
On Tuesday, October 4, 2005, Six-Out (1423) wrote:

You're still near the top of my people list, even if we don't talk...ever anymore. I hope you're ok.
On Tuesday, October 4, 2005, GothicBlack (186) wrote:

just to clearify past postings. This poem isn't about the Christion God. Nor does it matter, for i was getting at that i lost faith in myself more than anything.
On Tuesday, October 4, 2005, ApathysKiss (377) wrote:

well thanks for clearing that.
A former member wrote: That was obvious, in my opinion..yes, this was crushing.
On Tuesday, October 4, 2005, GothicBlack (186) wrote:

it wasn't meant as a suicide poem (though now that i read it agian, i see how one could get that). It is simply about giving up in everything
On Tuesday, October 4, 2005, GothicBlack (186) wrote:

amd for the record. I am not christion nor am i really an atheist either. I am just me and my beliefs i feel i do not need to explain. ~gothic~
A former member wrote: Gothic, I apologize that your poem has been littered..I saw your despair outlined clearly in this poem..a lovely portrayal of frustration and loyalty, dear.
On Tuesday, October 4, 2005, redtearswhitesnow (79) wrote:

ok ok people,lets all just calm down and do a sing along.
On Monday, October 3, 2005, ApathysKiss (377) wrote:

suicides don't go to heaven...lmao
On Monday, October 3, 2005, Saint Sentient (16) wrote:

According to the traditional bible. Some religions might see things different. If you want respect for your beliefs, you should offer the same respect for other's.
On Tuesday, October 4, 2005, ApathysKiss (377) wrote:

oh goody...oh ok, which christian religion glorifies suicide? can you enlighten me? if you can give examples i'll happily stand corrected. i thought there was only one bible and that it states there in dumb english 'killing is bad,
A former member wrote: ..'glorifying' is not the same as accepting with more of an open mind.. ..and as far as I could tell, Christianity wasn't specified..or was that your bias?
On Tuesday, October 4, 2005, ApathysKiss (377) wrote:

well gee i dunno i thought it was 'spiritual'
A former member wrote: And Christians are the only ones that can be spiritual? Yes, I think bias about covers it..
On Tuesday, October 4, 2005, ApathysKiss (377) wrote:

even your own life 'cause it's not yours.' oh dear...if she was atheist i'd shut up,but she talks of not loving a god and not not believing in one so she believed in a god in the first place otherwise she wouldn't be talking about angels.
On Tuesday, October 4, 2005, ApathysKiss (377) wrote:

besides, that was a mockery of doctrines.
On Tuesday, October 4, 2005, Saint Sentient (16) wrote:

*cont. than being unloved. It seems you're biased, and that is ignorant. Open up a little, and realize that your God isn't the only God that is worshipped.
A former member wrote: I do believe you missed the idea of the poem..open your mind, maybe, and read it again?
On Tuesday, October 4, 2005, Saint Sentient (16) wrote:

Keep in mind, dear, that Christianity isn't the only religion in the world. Open your mind a little on that aspect, maybe you'll see the poing I was trying to make. And some people turn to hate towards a power, and then to non-belief, because it's better
On Monday, October 3, 2005, redtearswhitesnow (79) wrote:

lol,i see my michelle ;p
On Monday, October 3, 2005, ApathysKiss (377) wrote:

lol you caught me =)~ i just got home and am writing...ssshhh.
On Monday, October 3, 2005, redtearswhitesnow (79) wrote:

*sssshhhhhhh's*
On Monday, October 3, 2005, redtearswhitesnow (79) wrote:

oh come on now,god is one badass mofo.