It's Okay These Things Were Missed

Looking into your face
The words won't leave these lips quite right
Not to sure how to talk about this
Trying to think at a decent pace
These hands tremble with nervous fright
So much everyone seemed to miss
This childhood that never was
Because this girl grew up to fast
You never saw all her pain
and what it possible does
You missed her tormentful past
She's growing more insane
How could you look over so much
You had the feeling something was wrong
I'm unsure of how to speak of it
Her pain grew with his touch
These things went on for so long
Now I face you and just sit
Don't know how to tell you these things
How many times
Or what exactly happened
Lift me up with you wings
Help me with my rhymes
Tell me if I'll ever mend
Can't look you straight in the eyes
Not while I feel this shame
How do I tell you how he touched me?
How apart of me slowly dies
Things will never be the same
I'm sorry I took so long to tell
Please don't say you were a bad mother
Aren't I still here today?
Once was hidden in a painful shell
You were a great mother to your daughter
She's trying to break from her dismay
and tell you how much she loves you
Somethings you just can't forget
Sometimes things will forever hurt
But this much is true
The future will someday be met
and I won't forever feel this dirt
This distrustful past will always be there
Mother there's no way for it to be fixed
You were a good mother then and now
Sorry the past will always be a distant nightmare
and it's okay that these things were missed
But I can't answer the amount of times or how
Her, this girl I'll forever be
Will someday be okay
Just be there to hold my hand
Tell me how much you love me
Comfort my pain away
My emotions you don't have to understand
Thank you for trying to be here for me
Everything can't be told
But now that these things are known
Your daughter I'll forever be
My hearts warm where it once was cold
and maybe I'm not completely alone
Not sure if things will someday be right
Speaking of my hurt will always cause sadness
Telling my past secrets were over due
In my darkness there's a little light
I'm Beginning to feel comfort and a bit of happiness
and Mother I'll always love you...




Dedicated to My Mother
Not sure if She'll ever read it though.