Where is my Faith?

Bless me lord
and give me strength
For I am cursed
Possessed by a beast
I cannot thwart

For every waking moment
even in my dreams -
it is there
It's influence is maddening
and at times -
overwhelming

Exorcising it's will
and flaunting it's superiority
over me
Feeding on my weakness
of spirit and
of heart

A pious beast
of self-important indulgance
It's hunger never satisfied
Seeking nothing more
than total dominance
of my will
my soul
my life

This source -
of all evil within me
cannot be allowed to continue
For the path it is dragging me down -
is most surely
one of self-destruction

Still -
there are times
that willingly I go with the beast
When I should be kicking and screaming
against it's hold -
I give myself over to it

And
indulge in it's depravities
And just like the beast within -
I am never satisfied
and am left wanting
and empty
and hollow

And in my despair -
to compound this torment -
I am ashamed
of my self-deceit
my weakness
my folly

Oh I know the name of the beast
- thus I know the key to victory as well
it's name is EGO
and the key to victory is -
faith

Oh lord -
where is my faith?