The Pin, The Picture, and The Cars

Pretty much the best day of my life,
That's what today was,
Even if some things didn't go as planned,
And some things went better than planned,
I've never felt so warm,
So comfortable,
Like I was exactly where I was supposed to be;

And then I got home and laid on my bed,
Saw the rip in my blanket that was twice as big as before,
I'm positive one of us is to blame for that,
I held the pin that still had the $7.95 sticker on the back,
The one that you gave me,
I stared at your picture laying on my lap,
I listened to 'Just What I Needed, on repeat at least 8 times if not more;

How is it that I can feel this empty and almost heartbroken on the greatest day of my life?
Maybe it's because nothing has ever felt more right,
When you were laying next to me and touching me,
And nothing felt more wrong when you said goodbye;

I?m trying my hardest to smile,
And I do a little,
When I glance at your picture,
Or think of 'tummy!' and Eskimo kisses,
But it's getting hard when you aren't here to smile with;

But by this time I've stabbed myself with the pin too many times and still won't put it down,
Your picture has slid off my lap and is somewhere in my blankets,
And 'Just What I Needed' has stopped playing and I can't find the remote to change it back;

So now I must go lay down in my freezing bed alone,
I must try to sleep so I can talk to you that much sooner,
I love you,
And even though you aren't here,
And I feel so low,
And empty,
And sad about it,
That's still the strongest feeling,
That I miss you and love you more than I can say.