*** mature nature and content***



A is for the aspirin
it takes the pain away
B is for the blade i use
at least I used to say
C is for the cutting
I did it with my blade
D is for the drugs
what i used those for, i can't say
E is for the emotions
That i never thought i had
F is for the fucked up shit
that always made me sad
G is for gorgeous
That, I never thought i could be
H is for when i was high
I felt like i was FREE!
I is for what I felt inside,
deepest hatred, sadness, and shame
J is for their joking
for it was "just a game"
K is for the things
that i knew were just wrong
L is for the love
that finally made me feel like i belonged
M is for the memories
that i wish i never had
N is for the nobody in the mirror
she always made me sad
O is for the opposite
the person i wished to be
P is for the person
for never again i wish to see
Q is for the questions
about all the holes in my past
R is for the reminders
away, they cannot be cast
S is for the screaming inside
never to be let out i swore
T is for the tiredness
I'm tired of being sore!
U is for unequipped for reality
that of which i was
V is for my victory
over everything that was
W is for wearing me down
that, i felt so much
X is for the "x"treme, if you will,
of the feeling of a loving touch
Y is for my youth
that i never truly felt
Z is for the zigzag patterns...
forever there...
the cards i had been dealt...