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Pathological Cocktail
By Melancholic VIncent
Anxiety had become a part of me
Generalized anxiety disorder they
say
Most of times it is unnoticeable
Other times it becomes
psychosomatic
Meaning that it's a physical manifestation
Reacting
to a stimuli of severe mental activity
Something like that
Makes
me take pills like candy
Other times it's sadness
Feeling
blue
Down to deep depression
Eyes lose focus, staring at the
bleak
Brain is shutting down, can't think straight
Get caught
in the eye of the tornado
Head hangs low
Shoulders come down
Whole body can't resist gravity
Obsession too makes part
of the mix
Ventilation pans: Compromised
Safety mechanisms:
Off-line
Overheating thinking process: Online
System overcharge
rate: 400%
Self-Destruction Initiative: Imminent
Compulsion
is it's middle name
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder
Seems I don't
own all traits for the diagnosis
But sure it plays a role in my charm
The ritualistic repetitions
Pair numbers superstition
Unwillingly
behaviors
Tired of that routine
I'm pulled into that surreal
dementia
A wormhole into another dimension
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Copyright 2012 Melancholic VIncent
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On Saturday, July 27, 2013, Maladroit
(202)
wrote:
This use to take up a lot of space in my life also. You write in unmatched detail. It seems that minimalist writing is taking the front seat these days, with myself as no exclusion. This reminds me of the importance of purging emotions. If I continue to offer elusive writing, I can't expect to gain a lot of "me too" in an audience. There is a lot of power in letting things like this hang all out.
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On Sunday, July 28, 2013, Melancholic VIncent
(430) wrote:
At the time I wrote this, I was used to deal with everything that was happening with my mind already, but it was good to put it all in a poem like this. Since I'm 13 years old, I always thought I had some sort of mental illness... Turns out that I have a lot of traces of several mental illnesses but I don't have enough to make a diagnosis, maybe it's better this way.... I can be... interesting without being ill. Thanks for this.
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On Wednesday, September 12, 2012, Zhee
(529) wrote:
you have described living the spectrum of anxiety disorders so well.. its is amazing to read it from this persepctive!
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On Wednesday, September 12, 2012, Melancholic VIncent
(430) wrote:
I bet the whole spectrum has a lot of different variations, just tried to describe my own. Always knew I had something, never knew what. Now, i'm beginning to understand it.
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A former member wrote:
Anxiety and stress and the role they play in my diseased life... I really enjoyed this piece.
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On Sunday, July 22, 2012, Melancholic VIncent
(430) wrote:
It's a common ail to all of us my friend. A constant fight, but in the end comes with rewards
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On Sunday, July 22, 2012, FadedBlues
(2169) wrote:
...OCD is demanding, being locked into an irresistible routine...
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On Sunday, July 22, 2012, Melancholic VIncent
(430) wrote:
Yeah, it's crazy. I have some traits in my personality, but not enough for the disorder itself fortunately, but I empathy to those who have
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On Sunday, July 22, 2012, dwells
(4285) wrote:
Sounds to me like when a sick person goes online to look up an illness, and after about an hour they find out that they have to symptoms of so many things they never even heard about before - so the obsessing begins, and the worry, enough to make you crazy!
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On Sunday, July 22, 2012, Melancholic VIncent
(430) wrote:
That's the placebo effect in reverse, I guess. The power of mind it's limitless, you can do pratically anything if you believe, for good or bad. Unfortunately, many know this (like me) but that's not enough for me to do anything about it and use as an advantage lol
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A former member wrote:
pretty good description of anxiety. I like "safety mechanisms: off-line" that whole part is pretty cool. I enjoyed this thank you
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On Sunday, July 22, 2012, Melancholic VIncent
(430) wrote:
Thanks for come visiting. I know someone with OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder), he thinks like that, as if he were a cyborg of some sort. I guess I was inspired by him in that part.
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