Contradictions

By Ladyhawke

I want to love. I want to hate. I want to run. I want to escape.
I want to hide. I want to be seen. I want to stay. I want to be free.
I want it all. I want it not. I want to go. I want to be stopped.
I want to strike. I want to duck. I want to fall. I want to stand up.
I want it old. I want it new. I want too many. I want just one you.
 
Love so pure. The power of hate. Run to no end. Somewhere to escape.
Hide from the world. Have me be seen. Stay where I am. I long to be free.
All to be mine. Want it, I do not. Go any where. I want to be stopped.
Strike you, I will. But only I duck. Falling for hours. I need to stand up.
Old things I crave. Show it to me new. Many things I want. I just need one you.


Make me famous. Make me a star. Make me invisible. Make me a scar.
Make me have style. Make me have flair. Make the pain go away. Make me not care.
Make me scream joys. Make me say cheers. Make me endure torture. Make me shed tears.
Make me live long. Make me live well. Make me curse my very soul. Make my life hell.


Fame and fortune. Life as a star. Invisible to eyes. Faint as a scar.
Style and fashion. Have all the flair. Just having the pain go. I just don't care.
I scream for joy. Cry many cheers. No, just torture me now. Have me bleed tears.
Live long, live strong. Just living well. Curse the day I was born. Living in hell.


~ Life's like the petals of a daisy
  And what are we taught?
  The old prophetic truth:
  He loves me, he loves me not...

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Copyright 2012 Ladyhawke
Published on Wednesday, January 25, 2012.     Filed under: "Poetry"

Author's Note:

Repost. I wrote this at a time I truly did think I was going insane. It was the darkest place I have ever been. And I never want to see that place again. The ending remarks, it is not about being loved by a man. It is about life itself abandoning me.
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  • sTr8-jAcKeT On Monday, February 6, 2012, sTr8-jAcKeT (735)By person wrote:

    Absolutely loved this write Lady. Well penned & well thought out; it shows. There are dark admissions that we have if we grant ourselves the honesty to the desires of having it every which-way. Kudos my friend, great piece!

  • A former member wrote: True Power breathes here! Brilliant details of contradictions. Another Impressive write and Interpretation. When life, people, or family abandon us it's intensely difficult to cope. We wander in that place so cold and black in our souls, a circle of irresisting loneliness, pain, and rage. We want so much and strive so hard to feel. Thank you for your expression truly from the soul. Unfortunately I still wander in this place, finding some taste for the contradictions that surround me in and out. This explains why my poetry is never the brightest. But I'm strengthen by those like yourself that display some respect for my work. Truly a Honor and a Pleasure to inhale your words My Lady. Thank you Thank you Thank you And I hope you never return to that place again as well. A soul with so immense a talent doesn't belong in the realms of torture.

  • A former member wrote: wow i love it nice job

  • Devilish On Wednesday, January 25, 2012, Devilish (2662)By person wrote:

    Aweee.. Beautiful.... Such a lady.. Scholar

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