My Last Breath, My Ruined Heart

My Last Breath, My Ruined Heart

By: Alexis Manley

my last breath
my ruined heart
my life scattered upon the jagged rocks below
my sacrifice to make others happy

my heart
my eyes
my bloodshed
my hurting soul

my life spirals out of control
yet, a glimmer of hope finds me
taking charge of who i really am
to be the real woman that i was ment to be

i found my perpose after my last breath
i have fixed and moved on with my ruined heart
i have to no longer deny my happiness
i have to no longer be afraid to be myself

my last breath as a depressed druggie
my first breath as a new person with perpose
my ruined heart stands no more
my revalation unto the midst of the others that love me

never living in fear or codependance
never being smacked by hurtful words
never being told that nobody cares
never being told that i am not beautiful in spite of all the people who look at me

my last breath.... only to be brought alive by the truth of my sarrows
my ruined heart.... brought in awe of its compacity to bounce back
love me for me... or do not love me at all
breath unto me so that i may have new life

i know that i am what i am, and how i should be
brought to my knees in agony no more
i love myself for who i am
i will never be your doormat again

fuck all the times that you made me cry
fuck all the bullshit lies you fed me
fuck all that has become of my restless heart syndrome
ruined no more
breathing better and better