Thoughts racing as fast as cars on the highway..
A JUGGERNAULT WITH IT'S CARGO OF SELF LOATHING CAREENS OUT OF CONTROL
Everything is the same so mundane..
SILENT SCREAMS NUMB THE PAIN TEARS OF JOY I REFRAIN
For every action a reaction there's always a price to pay..
THE TOLL IS HEAVY AND THE FINE VENEER MASK IS STARTING TO CRACK
I look fine on the outside..
UNLESS YOU LOOK INTO MY EYES, SHIELDED FROM YOUR GAZE
But within this empty shell is so much pain..
HAPPINESS EVADES ME, PAIN HAS BECOME MY COMFORT ALMOST TO THE POINT OF CRAVING
Beneath the surface there's nothing inside..
NOTHING BUT AN EMPTY WASP'S NEST.. A PAPER LANTERN VOID OF LIFE SWAYING AS A NOOSE IN THE BREEZE
Although my heart bleeds crimson the rules of life do not apply..
THERE ARE NO RULES WHEN IT COMES TO PAIN..THEY BECOME BROKEN LIKE ME
I cannot run I cannot hide..
A NIGHTMARE HELTER SKELTER RIDE
Mania makes me feel so high..
DARKENED DREAMS WHERE I COME TO HIDE...THE SUN IS SETTING AS I WAIT TO DIE
I know I can fly..
Depression takes me so low, so far down.. Darkness overcomes me swallows
me whole..
DANCING MACABRE WITHIN THE SHADOWS..I TAKE SOLACE IN THE OBSIDIAN FOG
I feel like I should run but oh I feel like I could drown..
CHOKING AS I BREATHE AND CONSUME MY OWN LIFE
I dream of finally being complete instead of millions of tiny pieces..
YET WHEN I OPEN MY EYES THE WORLD IS BLACK AM I WHOLE?
OR ....Tearing apart at the seams, it's so loud in here..
YET NO ONE HEARS ME..NO ONE SEES ME..NO ONE LISTENS..
All I can do to quiet my mind is shed these regrets like layers of skin..
A WARM-BLOODED SERPENT WITH INNOCENCE SPENT..
until the pain releases..
IT'S CRIMSON FOOTPRINT STREAMING FROM MY EYES..
Set me free please release me from my fear...
PLEASE, PLEASE LET ME FEAR NO MORE..