WHEN YOU TOUCH ME

When you touch me it hurts
sadness rims my eyes in drips of real love
and true pain
when you touch me I quiver
a sinner reaching his peak
flenching down as if I were weak
when you touch me
I feel alone
I remember vividly the vision of your back
the unnerving feeling of where, what, and with who?
when you touch me I wither
when you touch me I grow
when you touch me I wish and dream
of fantasy and betrayl
of forever and never
when you touch me my heart skips a beat
half in complete admiration
half in complete devistation
of watching my dreams shatter before my eyes
you were a paramount in my life
you were my rock, my motivation, my salvation
you are my death and my rebirth
my freedom and my imprisonment
when you touch me I fill with warmth
warmth of love
and warmth of anger
when you touch me I remember how much I love you
and how much I have neglected myself
when you touch me I miss you
the comfort of your familiar smile
the feeling of belonging in a partnership
when you touch me I cry
when you touch me I die
in a bed of dreams and whispers
Of long awaited promises.