Why look?

Why think?...

If it involves you,

Feel I'm killing myself.

Slowly

breath in,

tried it all...

Nothing seems to help.

Will this

just go,

or subside?...

To the back of my mind

so I can finally hide

This shame

I wear,

out for all

to see

exactly what is killing me.

Always I keep

giving in,

just to end the same...

I won't do it again.

I used to pray

for your happiness.

Now I pray

for you to lay in piss.

Eye lids cut

in the blistering sun,

all the time in the world

to relive what you've done. And

when my name runs through your head,

I hope you replay

everything that I've said.

Then you'll realize

this is your fate.

When your conscious died

you manipulate,

all that I gave you,

when I tried to save you.

I might not have made you

but I'll die trying to break you.