Visions flashing in my mind
Stuck in a never ending loop
Beginning and end undefined
Forcing me to stoop
From the weight of it all

I watched you stumble
And I watched you fall
Expecting your spirit to crumble
As I stand here tall
Realizing only now that I am to blame for it all

You look to me with stoic courage
Even as I am now falling apart
Your face betrays a understanding visage
Which only adds ache to my breaking heart
Down to my knees I fall

All I see is the pain
The pain that I cause
Wondering how you see me without disdain
And forgive me without pause
You must be too innocent to understand it all

My hope is for forgiveness
From you it has already been granted
But from me the thought only brings darkness
My self-worth forever tainted
It is into self-HATRED I fall