If I Dare...

I’m sitting here
(again)
just waiting...
   waiting for you
Hearing that knock on my door
that will never come.

If I’m alone
then so are you
(as always)
But so are we
when we’re together. Alone,
that is.

Fuck this.
Fuck them.
Fuck you.
I’m turning away from your pathway now.
Nothing
ever
makes
sense.
Not to me, or...
us?
Maybe?
I don’t know.

Scream for me,
go on and scream,
cry, I
laugh hysterically
at everything.

Flying, oh, I’m
flying high, but
I’m drowning,
sinking,
flying to the bottom
of an empty lake
filled with something that might be...