Scarlet Addiction

By Razor-kissed-wrists

I sit in math and think about
Those lonley blades in my room
My arm shakes until my skin breaks
My scarlet Addiction

People see my arm and ask
The only thing I say is cat
My lie so lazy because they stare
My Scarlet Addiction

Sooner or later my lie will fail
Because stupid people dig deeper
They'll find out and I won't have to lie
My Scarlet Addiction

I hide myself in a quiet corner
Where no one will look
I go unnoticed
My Scarlet Addiction

No one bothers
Which makes it easy
All by myself
My Scarlet Addiction

I dont give a shit
No one can stop me
I will fight
My Scarlet Addiction

The blood flows
A smile crosses my face
Scars cross my arms
My Scarlet Addction

Blood so red
Just a chemical reaction
But so beautiful
My Scarlet Addiction

A thick line of dark red
Think tears of baby blue
Pain
My Scarlet Addiction

I feel so free
When I slit my perfect skin
Now it's only perfect in some spots
My Scarlet Addiction

The cut never too deep
Nor shallow
The PERFECT pool of blood
My Scarlet Addiction

A red so beautiful
Hot and seductive
Scars so pretty
My Scarlet Addiction

Against the grain
The high is worth the pain
Sooo good
My Scarlet Addiction

They are the ones cutting me
Not me
It's their fault
My Scarlet Addiction

It's scarlet
It's my addiction
You can watch as I die from my
Red hot scarlet addiction

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Published on Tuesday, January 26, 2010. Filed under: "Depressed" and "Poetry"

Author's Note:

I haven't cut for two weeks and three days although I think about it every waking second

Comments on "Scarlet Addiction"

On Sunday, July 3, 2016, imfine (20) wrote:

The scarlet addiction is the same as any addiction. The action may stop but it will always be in your thoughts. From a recovering scarlet addict I hope you are doing better. I absolutely love this piece. Very well written and great imagery.
On Wednesday, June 22, 2016, Anarchist (12) wrote:

One of the best poems I ever came across. The way in which it is expressed makes it even more addictive. Cutting is an addiction to pain, and that is beautifully portrayed here. Nice work RKW.
A former member wrote: this is amazing I cant even describe how much i enjoyed reading this... I have gone almost a year withoutt cutting stay strong for all of us
On Monday, December 23, 2013, Morgoth (36) wrote:

This is my third time reading this and every time I'm reminded how amazing this truly is. I think you perfectly struck on every note that is what I feel, I love the cat excuse... used that before. Love the high of the pain, its soo intoxicating. This work sings to my soul, beautiful read :)
A former member wrote: pain is a simple drug... and any habit is hard to break... by the date of this piece, I hope your days and weeks have grown, but first steps can always be taken again...
A former member wrote: ive been six months without cutting, that is truly an amazing work.
A former member wrote: I've gone four months, four days without cutting. This poem is amazing! You totally spoke to my heart.
A former member wrote: i go threw this every day.
A former member wrote: about 5 months more or less without cutting...i cant stop thinking about it either..i understand you...amazing poem
A former member wrote: You described this perfectly. I miss that high when you do it but you soon have to realize that it's not nessesary.
A former member wrote: wonderfull
A former member wrote: They are the ones cutting me . Not me. Its their fault"..... ... I love this line and I said it many times back it my cutting days. I havent cut in almost 10 years but remember it perfectly. I liked the truth of this poem....very good.
A former member wrote: "The high is worth the pain" favorite line. Very relatable for me, nice work
On Monday, November 28, 2011, AllenTaylor (39) wrote:

Wow. Well done my friend.
A former member wrote: I UNDERSTAND THAT COMPLETELY EXCEPT I AM BAKER-ACTED EVERY TIME
A former member wrote: Haha.. the animal scratch excuse. Been there, done that. Beautiful write, I really feel connected to this. I love it.
On Friday, October 28, 2011, sTr8-jAcKeT (697) wrote:

I like that alot more effort was put into this one than a couple of yours. I like the deep imagery, the visualizations are always something that appeals to me. I never cut myself, but I train people in all kinds of unarmed combat; I have several knife-fighting scars & I think those are a thing of beauty, so I can relate. "Scars have the amazing ability to remind us that the past was real." -Dr. Hannibal Lecter VIII, M.D.
A former member wrote: Love it. Envy it. It may be sick. But shows "bliss".
On Sunday, May 22, 2011, Nameless Pariah (126) wrote:

I can definitely relate to this. Nice write by the way.
On Friday, March 18, 2011, maliceman (32) wrote:

my mom didn't believe the cat excuse either, i love this poem...
On Friday, March 18, 2011, Razor-kissed-wrists (13) wrote:

Haha thanks. I do too
A former member wrote: I love this it shows passion and sadness
A former member wrote: "A red so beautiful-Hot and seductive-Scars so pretty-My Scarlet Addiction-Against the grain The high is worth the pain" I'm sure your scars are just as beautiful as your words are.
On Wednesday, January 27, 2010, Deaths Apostle (65) wrote:

This is really good...Not only do I understand completely where you are coming from but I have learned to accept that the scars that remain is what truly makes one beautiful/perfect
On Wednesday, January 27, 2010, Razor-kissed-wrists (13) wrote:

Awe thanks I agree !
A former member wrote: That's a gewd one. I can totally relate
On Tuesday, January 26, 2010, Riven Waker (317) wrote:

pretty powerful stuff - i like the repetition of "My Scarlet Addiction" - for some reason it just works - perhaps because you hit upon one perfect phrase - well done, & welcome
On Tuesday, January 26, 2010, Razor-kissed-wrists (13) wrote:

Thanks muchly this is what happens when a math sheet gets put infront if me