My Love for You

I want you to be mine forever
i want to spend our lives together
and yet im scared...
i love you more than anything
but you could just not want me anymore
and it hurts...
our lives are so different
taking us in separate directions
i love you because youre so unlike me
you can teach me about things i would never get into
if it werent for you
when im with you everything is ok.
your breath is like a calming drug
a sedative to my anxiety
you are the only one who makes me want to laugh, cry, and smile
all at the same time.
you are so beautiful to me Andrew.
and im sorry...
trusting is so hard
you never really know how the other feels
ive been hurt before, a couple times
i want to trust you
even though you hurt me too.
because i think you deserve it.
love is so complicated
a glorious mess
people always tell me the im too young to know about love
what it really means
that i have so much to learn and experience
that someone better is out there...
but i dont want the easy route.
sure just go find someone new
someone you will think is better.
but i want to work for what i love.
i want to compromise
and argue
and make up again.
because if life isnt difficult sometimes
then youre not really living.
i want to fight for you.
i want you to fight for me.
please
dont abandon me
please dont tell me you love me
if youre just gonna break my heart.
you mean more to me than you can imagine.
im willing to travel the world for you
which, for me, is very hard.
you make me want to be a better person
and im trying... i really am
i dont know what im doing or where im going
and i know you want to go far...
i dont want that.
to see you only a few times a year
my heart hurts to think about it.
ill miss you.
your warmth, your smile, your affection, your touch.
the way your eyes light up when you laugh.
to put it simply... I love you Andrew.
everything that embodies 'you'
even the things i dont really like
just because they are what make you 'you'
i have bared my heart to you.
put it in your hands.
i believe you will care for me
and i hope that you will love me forever too.
Te amo, siempre.
Ich liebe dich, immer.
I love you, always.
Forever.