here i sit... contemplating the meaninglessness of it all. the hopelessness that gnaws at me constantly. the compulsion to worry and fret over all the little things that don't matter. because its all meaningless. i sit here knowing i will never be satisfied... i will never be anything to anyone. i wish to find something, anything, that one thing that would give my life purpose. so i take your hand and we walk together... searching for that ONE thing that will make me whole. we just walk together and talk together... get to really know one another. you look at me... i look away.
still searching for that one thing that will fill the emptiness in my life. i look again and see you smiling. i ask why youre smiling at nothing, you just smile and tell me ill figure it out soon. slight frustration and irritation rises in me... and i look for that one thing all the harder. a while later i begin to cry... angry and discouraged. you pull me close... hold me tight. your strong arms arms envelope my fragile body. i look into your eyes and see your crying too. i ask you why youre crying. once more you tell me ill figure it out soon. i hold onto you for another minute and suddenly realize something.
i look up into your eyes again... and i see something ive never seen before. i see love. i stand on tiptoe and whisper in your ear...
"I think I've figured it out."