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BORDERLINE PERSONALITY DISORDER

Despondency, rage, and fury, self-hatred, arrogance, anxiety, uncertainty and emptiness, clinging dependency, defiant stubbornness,violent self-damaging impulses---these are just some of the torments of the individuals who suffer from Borderline Personality Disorder.

They are desperate, intense, and unstable. They can't make use of their abilities and talents, they are terrified of being alone, and they destroy the relationships that they can't live without.

To have this disorder is to exist in perpetual anguish. And to be with people who suffer from it is to be trapped in a maelstrom with them.

They live for love, yet they become stubborn, arrogant, and fly into rage at the drop of a hat.

People with BPD live in an all-or-nothing, black-or-white existence.

Bouncing uncontrollably between black and white, all or nothing, Borderline individuals live unfullfilled lives. Mostly they feel depressed and pessimistic, and almost anything can set them off into extremes of despair,irritability, anxiety, disillusionment, guilt; occasionally, though, they experience brief episodes of euphoria. However, nothing but the usual low-level misery lasts.

FOR THE MOST SEVERELY DISORDERED INDIVIDUALS, ONLY MUTILATING THEMSELVES--CUTTING THEIR ARMS, BURNING THEMSELVES WITH CIGARETTES, BANGING THEIR HEADS AGAINST WALLS, AND SUICIDAL GESTURES--WILL TEMPORARILY MAKE THEM FEEL BETTER, CALMER INSIDE.

BORDERLINE OF WHAT? all 14 personality disorders
20% of people hospitalized for psychiatric difficulties are suffering from BPD.
Many of these people are hospitalized because they are suicidal( often precipitated by a romantic rejection), self-mutilating, or suffering extreme consequences of drug and alcohol abuse.

THIS WAS TAKEN FROM A BOOK CALLED "THE NEW PERSONALITY SELF-PORTRAIT" I read the part about BPD and was shocked by it's accuracy and when I confronted my Dr. he confirmed that I was suffering from this illness. Hope maybe this can help some people who don't have any idea where to look...this book has a big written test that you can do to find out about your personality...