There was a man who stayed inside my house

now.. he's ..g o n e. , only flies remain.

i could hear him move about, talking to himself
talking to me,
though i {never}. listened,
{never}. showed to anyway

i wake now, all i hear is .. s i l e n c e.. , DEAFENING me
No more bitter rants suffocating my ears with ..h i s.. perfect seamless smile
My clothes are on the floor, covering the steps that were once his

i always knew then

i knew my tears would touch the hollow prints of those f o r g o t t e n steps
although they .{Never}. belonged,
i knew,
i knew he'd leave

There's a hole in my bed to where he used to lay
simply lay,
still,
as i'd feel his dark eyes drink me in through sleep
as i'd feel the faint whispers of unconditional love seep through his sighs

gone

with all his ~e m p t y~ whispers that came to life only in my sleep
as reality faded intangibly, the only true that remained, held his name.
The sun shines through the cracks in the walls of my > murdered < heart,
and i know,
yes,
I KNOW,
he'll no longer try to catch them
no longer care, without him there

The house is~ e m p t y ~, almost as~ e m p t y ~as my eyes,and the home he built in them
the man that stayed is now far away y y,
leaving only a vacant room and a incomplete letter, torn and frayed

The dishes are piling up, i wish i had known what to say
words so ~ e m p t y ~ ,with nothing to sway the fiction that is him

i'm here to the bitter end

My bed's unmade, the cat's asleep, and he said he {NEVER} wants to see me again
{NEVER} wants to love me again,
Can't,
Can't die this way again

but i can't hear him, .... not when i'm sound asleep
can't see the tears he cries when the winds hitting my eyes

...Still he said goodbye,.....

but i can still pretend not to know the sound of a breaking heart
with mine locked away

i can shut my eyes, wish it all away
Die in my sleep
Never wake
TO HEAR h i s FINAL GOODBYE


as always,.*.*... just a little too late. . . .