I Was Once Beautiful

I was once beautiful
Many years ago
When I had a smile on my face
And there was love in my heart
No matter what people said
I was able to believe in myself

I was once beautiful
But I’ve fallen below
Into the whole of depression
Now I drape myself in garments
Of dark vinyl, leather and velvet
Desperately grasping for any hope

I was once beautiful
With happiness leading my life
My eyes would sparkle with delight
When I breathed fresh, clean air
And I’d leave empty plates
Those many years ago

I was once beautiful
Before all of the black
Or so I’ve been told
That I’m too dark for my own good
My prettiness is buried in a grave
Along with all of my self respect

I was once beautiful
I retained unmarked or untainted skin
Almost pale enough to be porcelain
It was lighted with a glow
A beautiful doll’s reflection
A future model for the runway

I was once beautiful
But now I’m just skin and bones
A full, almost untouched plate I leave
Starvation, I’m not able to find strength to eat
I live in the shadows, a hideous monster
An hopes of utterly disappearing

I was once beautiful
before I picked up a knife
And sliced apart my skin
Scarring my body forever
Now I must hide my features
Behind a cloak and masks of black

I was once beautiful
But now I only see ugliness
Through my dull and dying eyes

I was once beautiful
But I’ve burnt my body
And I’ve sliced my skin

I was once beautiful
But now I hide in shadows
And I shun any spotlight

I was once beautiful
Before I took anger out on myself
Because now I can’t see clear, any longer

I was once beautiful
Before I destroyed my face
Stained from crying to many tears

I was once beautiful
My innocent times prove this
But my childhood was stolen from me

I was once beautiful
That many years ago
Now I wonder, what has happened?
What truly has changed me so?