Where We Are (long read)

"...think we should see each other."
Words like a needle in the vain
Sharp pain piercing flesh
Ungodly emotion of the anti-euphoria
"I knew I wanted to know you.
I knew you would change me a little.
I never wanted to go this far..."
A tear touches her cheeks redundantly
"I don’t know what’s going on in my own mind!"
I've never felt closer to her
Seeing she feels the same frustration she covers up so well
"Hon, when did this happen? Why haven’t you said anything?"
Two down
Countless to go
"Maybe you should get help, I mean, your not normal"
"I thought that’s why you wanted me above the rest?"
"Well... It was, I guess I wasn't ready...?
Wasn't ready? This is life baby!
There is no prep period here!
"What are you thinking?"
She knows already
"Babe you kept me breathing in my darkest hours.
You drove me through the blinding light,
when I couldn’t see where I was going"
"That sounds sweet, but what does it mean!?!"
"You've become part of me. If we..."
"You know I love you. I just can't stand being like this!"
Like what
"Like I can't function without rationality
Reason isn't everything!"
I didn't really ask did I?
She knew
"Of course not, so why cling to it. This is a big fucking roller coaster girl! We can't understand it. All I want is someone to ride with me. To scream when we fall and shine brighter than the sun as we fly strait towards it. We both know this. So why?"
"God I don’t know."
She flicked her hair back
She's staring at me
Those deep cavern's of blue and tears
I can't move
I can't think
All I want to do is make this beautiful little animal I love to the end of the earth feel better than she does. Nothing more.
"If I left. If I left right now, would you-"
"YES! God yes I would miss you~"
"Baby just look at me and tell me you want me to leave."
She's still staring
I want to touch her
I want to kiss her fears into oblivion
I see the confused little child hiding inside
I know she see's the same
But she hasn't spoken
Only sobbed
She is shaking violently
Her small hands quivering
I put my arm around her back and whisper in her ear
"When I was young I knew this girl. She would cry and scream for something in her world. She would rock the bus and chase after animals on sunny days. She never thought what will they think. She never thought how will he look at me. She just moved. She lived in the moment she was in and took advantage of every gift god or whoever supplied to her. When I saw you, that night at jim's party, I saw her. Now, when I see you like this, just as confused about everything as I, I know why I love you. You are my innocence. You are everything I lost seeking truth through the years I’ve been on earth. You are what keeps my heart from turning to a rock and beating the life from me. Please finish this ride with me. I don't know what I would be without you, I only know I fear it in the very fabric of my soul."
She's not shaking
She takes her face from her hands
Jealous tears stick tenaciously to pink pursed lips
Her hands are wet with grief and pain
"We'll have our ups and downs. What I want to know - fuckit what I HAVE to know is, will you finish this crazy goddam ride with me my love. Don’t end it now."
She is staring at my eyes
My soul squirms under her gaze
"We'll see where it goes. You have to promise me one thing though."
"Anything"
"When I need you, you'll be there. You'll put your arm around my back and hold me until the sun rises. You'll remind me. Make me remember. I'm never alone with you. With you, I can never be alone. Remind me, and I’m yours forever."
"I promise. I swear to bend time itself to be with you when life turns away from you. I'll be there, like I am now."
She is smiling
Oh my god what a smile
She pulls me in and kisses me
Her lips salty with tears
Her embrace itself sweet
We are one in one
We are two of two
We are where we belong
Where all is right and bright and true
We are where we shall always be
Right


Where we are