14 years

By LovedByAMiracle

not very good, more of a testimony actually

In 14 years
ive had my heart ripped out and rejuvinated
my lips forget how to smile
my soul turned black

in 14 years
ive fallen in love with few
hated many
and forgotten my dreams

in 14 years
ive been fucked, made love to, then tossed aside
beaten and starved emotionally
only by myself

in 14 years
ive caused blood to flow from my arms
smiled because of it
and lived with the scars

In 14 years
drugs i know nothing about have told me what to think
what to feel
how to act

In 14 years
ive managed to wipe out my purity
my beauty
my radiant glow

in 14 years
ive aged myself way beyond my years
aching to die
loathing the very essance of life

in 14 years
ive been nothing but a waste
but you, at 14 you're still fresh and new
i'm way too old for you

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Published on Saturday, January 24, 2004. Filed under: "Poetry"

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Comments on "14 years"

On Wednesday, March 22, 2017, Drea (1388) wrote:

Raw. That's the only word that feels adequate when it comes to this. I'm sad I've never come across this when it was first posted.
A former member wrote: Very deep with a twisted end. I like it. Very raw.
On Friday, June 2, 2006, HalfDarkAngel (59) wrote:

oh my... this is incredibly powerful. i just can't describe how this makes me feel... a person can be their own worst enemy
A former member wrote: Nice, very talented writer....not to sound like an ass here or anything but...all that that you've gone through? yeah....that's like preheating the oven. Brace yourself baby girl....you're in for a ride
On Wednesday, March 2, 2005, Green-eyed Raven (54) wrote:

*stares in awe* *Raven*
A former member wrote: So true. I know exactly how that feels...
On Sunday, February 15, 2004, nell (270) wrote:

wicked write, i used to think like that at that age.
On Saturday, February 14, 2004, yslehc (334) wrote:

awsome poem.. very sad and true about a lot of people.. great job,i loved the last stanza
A former member wrote: I really like your style a whole lot keep it up
A former member wrote: i think it's kool say what you want gilrl
On Friday, February 6, 2004, Liz (265) wrote:

I didn't realize you were so young. I'm sorry to say it's not over yet, but you seem to be managing quite well. Just keep growing towards the direction you want. We've all been there, I think.
On Sunday, January 25, 2004, Elizabeth (4) wrote:

Very strange, uncanny. Nearly stanza for stanza a poem I wrote two and a half years ago. I certainly hope it's a coincidence, if it is, it's an amazing poem and I feel I know you.
On Sunday, January 25, 2004, LovedByAMiracle (51) wrote:

i assure you its a coincidence. but wow, id like to know more about you
A former member wrote: This is beautiful, I don't know how you weaved it together in such a lovely way. I'm adding it to my favourites, because it's brilliant and I really identify with it. I like that. ~Wish Upon A Star
On Saturday, January 24, 2004, Kinkypoptart (555) wrote:

Wow, this write was really good. I don't think anyone could have captured these thoughts any better. ~*~Tart~*~
A former member wrote: this is really How i feel and you should keep writing