I told him that he hurt my heart
he said he did'nt think I had one
This reply reminded me of you
you whom I could never forget
I try to smoke away the memories
chase them away by getting high
and staying that way
But still they penetrate my fog
flooding my mind with distant images
when I'm alone
This fear of my emotions overwhelms me
bound up in silence
my heart screams
silence hurts my ears sometimes
It seems like your always here in the darkest
corners of my room...but its not you
Its just the darkness of my imagination
comforting me...
No matter how many times
I remind myself that you're gone forever
One word... one look triggers thoughts of you
I remember what we were to each other
How your skin felt against mine...
your laughter...how your smile would light up your eyes
how I looked in your eyes...I've never been that good
Never will again...I'm sure...
That golden haired girl...who captivated you
doesn't exist anymore...she is buried with your body
Slowly turning into ash and dust
So I smoke this pipe lighting it
with the torch I once carried for you
My life has become salty from my tears
I tryto hide within my fog
But hereyou remain...haunting me
and I remember everything
Playing it back like a movie
inside my burnt out mind
And I hate myself a little more
for being unable to save
you
from
your self