Motherless Abomination

By Melancholic VIncent

My Mother is dead
She died long years before me
Her essence vanished
Deceivingly having motion, mimicking emotion
Body functions still operational and running
But so it happens with the machines
Initial sparks and endless wheels
Also imitate the soul in the machine
In the end it's just coordinated clockwork
With no cognition beyond the cogs nature
A nature made of metal and cold deduction

Same cold deduction with reason and lack of it
What reasons could there be
To leave her breathing and breeding
After the mythosis of self and loss of integrity
Creating a singular event of time/space distortion
At which point the paradox is created
Created an offspring from rusty dendrites
Fed by irradiated milk and insanity poisoning
To fully develop into a demonhunter
Chasing the demons she created
Or the demons who created her

Demons of the mind
She told me a lot about her demons
So I created my own

My Mother is dead
Possessed by insanity
She is now just an anomaly
And so am I
I am just a motherless abomination

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Published on Saturday, May 4, 2013. Filed under: "Poetry"

Comments on "Motherless Abomination"

A former member wrote: I understand how you feel... I know its hard to have to live with something like this, especially since, there basically is no one to blame. Its just an inevitable and irreversible downward spiral, no escape whatsoever, and that really fucks up the whole thing....its a terrible thing to live with. I like the way you related your mother to a machine...running and working, but no soul, no life. Deteriotated completely. But one thing...no matter how you feel, you are not an abomination my sweet big brother, youll never be :)
On Monday, May 6, 2013, Invisible Girl (134) wrote:

You see her for what she is... and who she is. You are better. The demons you have created are a way to survive.. but you, my friend, are going to rise higher. You will be a light for others who live with the same hell. You will be a demon hunter of the mind. Freeing yourself and others from the ghosts in their heads. An intellectual who will be educated and also holds the trump card of experience. I have faith in you to become someone great. ...btw- the last line is bullshit...just saying..lol well done
On Monday, May 6, 2013, Melancholic VIncent (430) wrote:

I see you really understood the poem and thank you for those words, they are refreshing. The last line it has a meaning, it's like... If my mother was dead before I was born, they I have no mother and so I was born from a paradox, an abomination is something that should not be due to the paradox.... Think you understand.
A former member wrote: Interesting to say the least. My own fathers untimely death is one topic I don't like to touch on, but I am inspired by your approach. Great write.
On Sunday, May 5, 2013, Melancholic VIncent (430) wrote:

This one death is metaphorical is some way. She's not really dead, she's just insane, but in some way, she's does not longer exist, just this mental ill version of her. It's not that I hate her, I don't. But in some way she does not longer exist. I am sorry about your father, our parents are our foundations and when one of them is gone, we will feel the ground escaping from our feet