Dear Doctor
By Shadow_Kissed5180
I’m tired,
I’m lonely,
I’m sad,
I’m horny.
I don’t know,
I think I care,
What’s it matter who was there?
Sadness consumed me,
It grew and it evolved.
What is there to do?
There is no life for me
to dream of.
I’m ruined,
I’m dirty,
I’m hurt,
I’m so very lonely.
Loneliness runs through my veins,
Gradually it drove me insane.
So now I sit before you telling you of my pains.
Depression is like no other,
There are no preconceptions.
Sometimes there are triggers,
Other times it’s random.
A poet would say something like,
Depression is a black, darkened sea,
It consumes me,
Chokes me,
Hurts me,
Numbs me.
It chews away
at my soul.
I’m sad,
I’m scared,
I’m hurt,
I’m scarred.
Anxiety makes my body tremble,
Nervous and anxious; I wait.
What am I anticipating?
My mood goes up and down,
I’m hyper,
I’m happy,
I’m sad,
I’m exhausted.
So now Mr. Doctor,
What is there to do?
What is there to say?
Do you believe me when I
say my mind is in disarray?
I think you can do something,
You’re not the one who’s suppose to listen.
Just help me get a leveled head,
You can do this by upping my meds.
Author's Note:
I was just in the mood to write. So I decided to declare my feelings straightforwardly.Comments on "Dear Doctor"
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A former member wrote:
Loved the first stanza. Very discriptive poem ][ ][
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On Sunday, March 18, 2012, Hands_Around_My_Throat
(67) wrote:
Medicine is lovely, but to have a true fix, sometimes you have to look deep and make a real, lasting, change. Medicine is lovely. But it can only carry you so far. I liked the hopeless feeling in this, how it jumps between what is ration and irrational to show how the mind is chaotic and consuming.
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On Sunday, March 18, 2012, Shadow_Kissed5180
(24) wrote:
thank you. and i know medicine can never be a "true fix". But i'd rather wallow and fade into a chemically induced happiness than be drowning forever.