~Emptiness~

By Phantasmagoria

 I often dream of that warm feeling of joy,
and where it disappeared to....
Suddenly my life began to crumble,
the happiness slowly drained from me,
while the emptiness quickly filled up.

I remember looking forward to each and everyday,
now I spend each day wishing it was my last.
Oh, how I wish I could go back to the past!
But that part of my life is over,
and theres no going back.

Every agonizing hour brings me closer and closer...
to the breaking point, that is.
I'm slowly but surely loosing my mind.
My brain is a suicidal pool of negativity,
and sanity is jumping off the deep end.

I just feel so alone,
But how can one be alone if surrounded by loved ones?
That's just how the mind kills, at least...my mind.
Pain was the only thing that kept me alive.
But I've become immune to pain.

My wounded soul has finally become numb,
and the blade of life has reached its point of dullness.
Insanity, at last, has arrived!
As I lift the weapon to my temple,
I am left with one final question...



Should I pull the trigger?
    

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Copyright 2011 Phantasmagoria
Published on Saturday, October 8, 2011.     Filed under: "Depressed" and "Poetry"
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  • darkness falls On Friday, March 2, 2012, darkness falls (73)By person wrote:

    Are you in my head? Kidding! This one seemed familiar to me, and after a little thought I realized it's a lot like one I wrote called "Leaving". We were definitely on the same wavelength. I wish I could ask you never to take that final step, but I cannot say for sure that I might not take it myself. If you ever need anyone to talk to, my e-mail address is on my profile page. Don't hesitate, I'm way too shy to bite....

  • Phantasmagoria On Tuesday, February 28, 2012, Phantasmagoria (121)By person wrote:

    Thank you to all who read this! It is very much appreciated! :)

  • A former member wrote: Love the expression of words use here. Seeing through eyes of someone else who has felt what I have. Thank you for sharing.

  • Orion63 On Monday, January 30, 2012, Orion63 (1)By person wrote:

    i think, metaphorically speaking, the trigger was pulled. The mere act of recognising your position means you have read the first word in your life's next chapter. Great write.

  • A former member wrote: Your writes never dissapoint, and l can defnitly relate to this piece. Nice work, and hopefully your life will start lookng up soon

  • A former member wrote: Very brilliant! Well done. :)

  • rosemaiden On Wednesday, November 23, 2011, rosemaiden (185)By person wrote:

    wow this really got to me....beautifully written

  • A former member wrote: I totally relate with this poem! Nothing is worse than numbness...than not being able to feel anymore. You wrote this brilliantly. I hope you have found feeling again. :)

  • dwells On Saturday, October 8, 2011, dwells (4285)By person wrote:

    If you were happy once, then you can be again - but not necessarily in the same way. Don't set your sights too high because it begins with a series of small steps. Do you really think you'll be out of your misery, or in a better place, if you blow your brains out - quite a gamble if you ask me...

  • Devilish On Saturday, October 8, 2011, Devilish (2658)By person wrote:

    It is impossible for me to speak of suicide, my cousin shot himself at 18 with a 30 yat 6... Over a bitch! I am no one to judge, believe me I have more demons thatn hair on my head.. I'm an alcholic call girl that dances with the devil each night.. You still care to play with me you know where to find me... Scholar

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