it's not like i burn for you
(all the time)
or ache for you
(please see above)
but whenever I'm with you, I like it
and when I'm not, I feel the lack of you acutely
Not for the first time in my life
I wish I could read your mind
but I cant help but notice you
noticing me
watch you
watching me
smile at you
smiling at me
Sweet stubborn silence surrounds this situation
if we don't talk about it
how long will it go away?
how long will I need to wait untill you reach for me again?
Untill I can curl against you and sleep again
awaking to you filling my senses
the smell of you, the rise and fall of your chest 
the soft brush of your lashes on your cheek
you solid beneath my heavy head
Mon Ami
Mon Ami
Before these words have finished flowing from my heart
my head
my fingers
I have awoken from this fever dream
This sweet delirious fantasy that resides in my brain
only to be revisited on my coldest insomniac nights
my moments of heated solo love
when I yearn for the impossible.