my mind

innocence of a child taken forever
memories suppressed too painful to live with
guilt but why should i feel guilt for the actions of another
amnesia by the perpetrator & denial of its occurence by others
stupid apology written by him received by me for another
words not meant to hurt but they do, get over it, would if i could, wish i could
hurts so much every time i awake from a flashback
sorrow, tears i can not cry but need to
anger at others who don't or can't understand and at myself
die i wish i could, thought about it
could've told someone else but i was a child
should've told someone in authority, did tell my dr
wish i had've had counselling before it did so much damage
wysiwyg - broken twisted mind in shell of a body
why do they do it, why do i let it hurt me all over again
where did i go, where is the strong individual that used to be here
why can't i come back, or can i ever come back to a time with peace of mind
will i ever heal, will it ever stop making me angry
do i do it, make it so damn public no-one can deny it