I Don't Like This Film

By Distorted_Reality

Sometimes I truly believe
that my life is a movie
run by an arrogant prick
who loves a morbid comedy

(I think)

He keeps on pressing rewind
because I keep falling back
onto the same painful track
Oh how funny,
How unkind
Oh how many times I've tried
to press forward / from this

(It just doesn't work)

I bet somewhere
there's a crowd that is
watching with a smirk
laughing at the simple fact
I've been attempting

When every failure
has left me cracked
It's condescending
and I can't even act
I hate pretending

(Guess I'm not supposed
to have a happy ending)

Just when I think
it couldn't get any worse
the director will re-edit
find such ways to
immerse me
deeper in this pit
filled with much
complicated shit

-
--
-
How entertaining

but only if each
problem stays remaining
well not to me
It's just my sarcastic
way of explaining

(that I'm really not okay)

for with each and every day
I go through
the same routine
I could see it on display
I could just imagine
it on screen

and I don't like this film
It scares me
I can't watch

Turn my head in shame
the Misery has
left a notch

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Published on Sunday, June 13, 2010. Filed under: "Poetry"

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February 3rd, 2013

Comments on "I Don't Like This Film"

On Wednesday, January 23, 2013, lupus tenebrae (860) wrote:

I find myself ashamed, coming here too late to tell someone their work was striking, beautiful in its bare honesty like the echelon of very few. It's still pretty fresh in my mind, the last time we lost someone here, I didn't know you that well, but R.I.P. for the ones that did.
A former member wrote: Mmmm I keep coming back to this one...definitely a favorite of mine.
On Thursday, November 4, 2010, Iwas (39) wrote:

The idea of not being in control of ones destiny. The feeling of being trapped inside your own life. This piece imposes a misery I don't quite understand. To convey emotion like that is a talent. Well done.
On Saturday, November 6, 2010, Distorted_Reality (100) wrote:

yeah I was feeling pretty down that day....I appreciate the feedback :)
A former member wrote: nice write..like your description pattern..thanks for sharing :)
On Friday, October 29, 2010, Grim_Sorrow (74) wrote:

Another impressive piece love, sorry i didn't read this sooner. Keep writing, I'll keep reading... Fav's
On Saturday, November 6, 2010, Distorted_Reality (100) wrote:

why certainly :) same with you Grim ;)
A former member wrote: creatively written... I used to manage a theatre.... the projectors are very temperamental... just remember though... your the one in charge! :) write on!
On Sunday, June 13, 2010, insideout (47) wrote:

I love this, have felt this way all too many times. Nicely written!