A night of giving up and waking up
By darkdesires
WARNING: The following work is intended for readers that are 18+ and may
contain material not suitable for everyone. Those readers who might be
easily offended or upset by reading sexually deviant works I suggest not
read my work.
It all began with a caress of her cheek. A smile spreading from ear to
ear and dancing across her face. I hear her softly breathing, now letting
out a gentle sigh. I close my eyes and think to myself ‘don’t let
this be a dream’. She nuzzles me gently and I brush back her long hair,
resting it behind her ear. I caress her cheek and kiss her gently. Our
lips touch and the electricity courses through my body. A few moments
later I pull away ‘this isn’t a dream, it can’t be’. “I love
you so much” my mouth fumbles out. She smiles and nods and returns my
feelings with a kiss. Tears build up and roll down the sides of my face
has I climb on top of her and kiss her neck deeply taking a nibble at it.
Her mouth drops open and a moan escapes, her nails find my back and sink
in dragging down a bit. I continue to kiss passionately at her neck muffling
my moan through our kiss, pressing my body against hers. I scratch at
her naked sides with my fingers tracing up and down in slow steady streaks.
I kiss the center of her chest and lick at her nipples making her let
out a series of small moans. I caress her cheek and let my other hand
slide down her sides and gently sneak under her panties. My middle finger
penetrates her softly and slowly for only a second. It climbs up and rubs
her clit up and down gently. I kiss her lips and lean into her ear whispering
to her “I love you, now and always”. Her moans stop and she looks
me in the eye and smiles “I love you too, Corey”. I kiss her deeply
and begin to rub my finger against her yet again, moving it desperately
moaning has we kiss. Her body arches has she roars out a moan then slams
her body back down against the bed. My hands side to her sides once more
and begin to push her panties down. Letting them move down inch by inch.
I kiss the center of her chest and jump down getting on my knees before
the bed. Letting my tongue lick against her in long slow laps. My hands
stroking her inner thighs, scratching the skin softly and gripping her
thighs tight when moving down. The taste of her sends my body into overdrive,
making me want her even more. My licks start becoming shorter, more forceful,
more intense. I grip her hip tight with one hand the other scratching
at her thigh desperately. “I need you” she begins to wail to me in
the midst of her ecstasy. I let myself rest on top of her and grind against
her. Letting her feel my length trail up and down her in a slow motion.
“Do you want this, my dear?” I ask her holding her wrists tight.
She nods whimpering her body shaking beneath me “Please” she manages
to squeak out. I lie down on the bed and hold her wrist “Come now, my
dear” I tell her smirking. She climbs on top of me a leg going to each
side of my hip. She carefully takes a hand and eases me inside of her.
We both let out a moan of pleasure and I bite my lower lip. “That about
does your fun” a chuckle then escapes my lips has my hand grabs her ass
and the other holds her thigh tight. I begin to grind against her keeping
myself deep inside of her. ‘I want to torment her’ my mind tells me.
I hear her whimper my name has if to say something more. I lift her up
ever so slightly and begin to thrust in and out in a slow process. She
starts breathing heavily whimpering while bouncing on me. I watch her
closely, my eyes glued to her. Taking pleasure with every reaction that
comes across her face. Her mouth slips out a deep moan and I go crazy
beginning to push hard and faster. ‘This is better than a dream, fuck
I can’t even contain myself’ my mind starts thinking to itself. I
can’t take it anymore and roll pushing her on her back keeping a tight
grip on her thigh to assure I stay inside of her all the while. My other
hand starts dancing across her stomach up to her chest while I thrust wildly.
Her head tilts back and I scratch my hand back down to her stomach. My
moaning and thrusts become erratic and I can feel us both start to climax.
Her body is trembling and she is tightening around me has we keep going.
I thrust deep and hard has we cum together. I feel myself filling and
throbbing inside of her. We’re both gasping as we look at each other.
I smiles and try to lay next to her, but I open my eyes and everything
is gone. The messy sheets, her body, and her cloths on the floor nothing
was left. Was it ever there… my mind goes racing at all these thoughts.
I collapse to the floor hysterically crying. My fists clench and hit
the bed so hard it flies up. I lean down and start punching the floor.
It’s all gone. The feelings, the hope, the love all of it left without
so much as a blink of the eye. My mind starts to collect itself. ‘Never
again, Corey’ it says. “I know” slips out to myself. ‘You can’t
hold on to it anymore, Corey… its killing you’ I cry knowing it’s
true. “It’s all I ever wanted” I sob. ‘Well it’s not your time…
you had a chance… in time maybe another… but right now, no. So don’t
even think of it. Don’t believe it. Don’t even acknowledge it exists.’
“I want to” I scream out while my crying deepens. ‘Love is consuming
you, Corey… it’ll kill you at this rate. Let go. It just isn’t
meant for now.’ “I still love though” I keep to myself silently.
‘How can you love them when you’re love is hurting? Love wasn’t
meant to hurt another person and all you love is doing is causing pain.
Let go of it. Maybe one day you can love without hurting the one you
do. Let go.’ I feel everything drop inside of me. Has if all my organs
turned to steel. I feel sick and run to the bathroom. I cough up the
vomit tears still rolling down. “What do I do now?” I sob to myself.
Everythings gone silent… there’s no one to be found and my mind has
ceased. I fall back crying. No… please… someone… anyone… be here.
Comments on "A night of giving up and waking up"
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On Tuesday, August 26, 2014, SickSanityJenn
(250) wrote:
Amazing! Great write. The slow, meticulous build up... followed by a heart wrenching ending. Well done. Captivating read. 10/10
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On Tuesday, August 29, 2006, LordBrosnian
(44) wrote:
That furtive pit, we poets, call a heart carries scars most can't imagine. Love for us is not a feeling. It is an existence; and when it's ripped away, for us, the pain is unfathomable. Great write
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On Saturday, April 22, 2006, Dissolving Poet
(560) wrote:
I'm here for ya!
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On Saturday, April 22, 2006, Dissolving Poet
(560) wrote:
The same? Hurt? Emotiaonally broken it just tattered at me I love ya dear, this was just horrible I can't stand to read such horrors that made you hurt
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On Saturday, April 22, 2006, Dissolving Poet
(560) wrote:
OMG I can't stop crying at these words the beginning was passionate and made my heart soar, but this made it crash and burn to feel such love is damnable. I have words that fumbled but I counldn't say because I can't express what this made me feel.
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A former member wrote:
wow...the process of reality and dreams plays so much with emotions...realization is hard...amazing...great write...
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On Sunday, January 29, 2006, Mahakala
(207) wrote:
OMG...soooo many memories and emotions have been awakened...I have also been through some thing like that...great write...
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On Saturday, January 28, 2006, The Crimson Queen
(917) wrote:
Oh DD, this has such an intense sorrow to it..I am left in tears and understanding..The past can be such a torment to remember.. Good times all vanished within the blink of an eye. But you will have love again hun, I promise.
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A former member wrote:
A mix of emotions came to me when reading this. Really good exceptional writes. I found too if I could sleep I could be with the other person. But all my dreams were not how I wanted them to be. I ruined my family when I was in love.
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On Saturday, January 28, 2006, Aurora_Light
(472) wrote:
*bows head* as i have said call me and i will be there. "Love wasn’t meant to hurt another person" but it does no matter who the couple is someone was hurt at some point. a moving workone that makes me feel alone myself. *bows*