love/hate [its a trap]

its a big trap
i'm stuck in
this
vicious
c y c l e
of love you
hate you
fucking hate
[you]

i try to make myself
n.u.m.b.
to you
cut off circulation
to our bloodlust connection
kill off the part of me
that still loves you
so fucking
much

and i can't keep doing this
you're my downward
spir
a
l
my endless maze
and i'm trapped in
the trapdoor
(this foggy haze)

you're my bad karma
i've collected for so long
and its wrong
because i'm wrong
(you make me feel i'm always wrong)

and fuck you
for your enigma
drawing me
back
in
again
and
again
and there's
never an
end
to this hell
holding cell
of love/hate
can't configurate
but i'm going blind
with this hatred in my eyes









and i'd rather be






[dead]