These feelings
keep me tangled up
with you
I hurt
I cry
I allow the anger to build
desperately trying to fool myself
into believing
I can finally walk away
but you won’t let me
your calm voice
sweeps over me like the ocean waves
‘til I can’t maintain the turmoil
your sweet humor
soothing the raw edges
like the rushing of the cool river
through my soul.
But the hurt builds again
…I finally vented
my hurt and frustration
trying to pull away
resolve set
this time
to stay gone
Only then have I heard
the anger and frustration in your voice
otherwise never there
with me
but
only enough
to calm me down
only enough
to not let me run
not let me go
keeping me bound to you
by feelings
neither of us acknowledge
too afraid
too scarred
by past hurts
to feel free
to always be
as we are
when our lips touch
when our bodies meet
when I gently stroke your face
and you plunge your hand into my hair
pulling me down
holding me close
kissing my face
seducing my mouth
while you move inside me
your hands and lips
telling my body
what my heart needs to hear.