It seems like forever since the thoughts wiggled into my doors and suffocated every root of me dry
Your potent smell lingers on my clothes and cigarettes and alcohol never smelled so rotten...
The maggots have eaten holes in my brain and the tumor seems to get bigger every time a thought of you travels in and out of the squishy mess
I can feel your fingers tip toeing up my arms and the feeling of your dirty hands crawling on me makes me squirm in my bed and leaves my mouth with a pungent taste of black ink...
And for a brief second the holes in my head get larger and the worms swimming through my intestines stop their constant chewing noise... and the beating of my heart still left clenched in your soiled hands makes an attempt to cry out for help while being suffocated and buried alive without any of its lifelines

And I catch falling stars in my mind and for once they heal the wounds that your pain has caused
The dirty laundry that I've washed too many times can't remove the filth that still remains, and I forever am drowned in your pity and your grime
And the only part of me that seems to work, is the part that I cannot control... the part where your name and your touch makes my feeble mouth smile and bring me a bit of joy
Then I remember the chewing noise in my stomach and the hole gets bigger and the feelings get stronger and I vomit at the thought of your lips caressing over me

And waking up next to you in the filthy bed leaves me in utter confusion and I believe your hollow lies, and your mixed up words over and over again
And you continually chew through my brain and make sure every thought that my brain thinks is only about you

And my tears bleed out the bloody mess in my brain
And my heart still clutched in your soot filled black hands makes me cry more
And the breath of your soul lingers around my neck paralyzing my every move
As you squeeze my life away with your fingers wrapped around every vein...
I can feel your heart beating with mine... and for a second you look into my eyes
...And I am left on the floor alone, buried alive, still smelling faint cigarettes in the background...
And the stars that lingered in my healing head fell to the floor...
...Bleeding diamonds...