Sleepy sear of life

*My phone gave up and when I tried to at least get my phonenumbers, I found this poem saved in my sketches... I remember somehow being very sleepy but unable to fall asleep and making some of these sentences.. It's just as new to me as it is to you ;)*



I thought that I’d be weak without you
That I would die but I was wrong
Feared that I would break inside,
But I never before felt this strong

You were my life and I thought when you left
You would take that life as a gift
To give to the next girl you conquer
But it was just my mind set adrift

I loved you in the purest way
In every dimension Love can be
But as we parted I was torn
I thought you’d leave me that to be

I had to start again from scratch
Fears tainting my inner deep
I favour to feel you’re not my match
Put that pain into perpetual sleep

Never to re-instate the searing revealed
That awful sense of feeling desolated
But my hurt, my torn heart, my disrupted soul
Everything that you had caused, all has ameliorated

It’s strange, perhaps once painful a bit
All that we shared has vanished
Though to my very relieving
From my being, THOU ART BANISHED